I remember looking down on myself, whilst in the resuscitation room at the hospital. It was like watching TV. I watched the doctors working on me. Cutting my clothes to expose my chest. The noise. The brightness of the room. The energy, intensity of the situation. I saw them shock me with the machine (can't remember what it's called). I recall the look on a couple of the doctors faces. All the time I was floating above myself (ceiling level) feeling peaceful, released, calm - GLAD!
They decided to try shocking me again, they worked on me for (approximately - my guess) ten minutes, and as the time went by the image of me on that table gradually got smaller and smaller.
I wasn't aware of anything / anyone, above me / behind /in front/ to the side of me.
I remember them (not sure who) saying my time was running out, they would have to declare me dead if I didn't respond to the next shock. As they said this my grandfather Dennis, who passed away nearly four years ago, and who had never ever shouted at me in my life, shouted into my right ear, 'NO! GO BACK! IT'S NOT YOUR TIME!' The shock of him shouting at me, made me 'jump' back into my own body.
I was in a coma for four days after they brought me back and in hospital for a further week.
Date NDE Occurred: 07/13/2007
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) I had attempted to commit suicide by taking an overdose. I was resuscitated twice. I only had one NDE.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Not sure.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Not sure.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Tunnel vision, only color in the image I was looking down on, unaware of ANYTHING else.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Hear much clearer.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It felt like I was in a tunnel.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace, relaxed, pleased, free, calm, relieved, GLAD, happy.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate none
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate none
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain My view on life and relationships has changed profoundly, unsure if it's because of the 'experience of nearly dying' or the fact that I have been given another two chances at life and I realize how very lucky I am to be here.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? My grandfather shouting at me - he never ever raised his voice to me whilst he was alive. We were so incredibly close whilst he was alive, and I believe he ordered me back because of how close we are / were and also because of his fantastic love / relationships with my children.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes As soon as I opened my eyes I have told EVERYONE!! They think I'm mad, but I really don't care, I KNOW THAT IT IS TRUE!
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had read stuff on it before. It wasn't really something that I can honestly say I was that interested in.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I know intuitively that it was real. There was NO DOUBT in my mind.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I still KNOW it to be TRUE and REAL.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No