Surgery-related. One week after surgery to replace a failing aortic valve with a plastic one. I seemed to be getting well enough for discharge. I passed out and recall hearing voices saying emergency surgery was needed to release blood collected near my heart that was squeezing it and not allowing it to function.
After a one week recovery from heart surgery to replace a failed aortic valve with a plastic one (a St. Jude who I adore) I experienced an unconscious episode - yet heard discussion that I needed immediate surgery again. I went to the operating room and remember the overhead white light. Then I felt I had entered a large tunnel and at the end, my mother stood with open arms outstretched. I knew I felt only love and peace. How sweet it would be to go to her. Yet, I had to tell her, 'Not yet. I have to finish my tasks on earth. To be with my family. I will be back later.' And it was hard to turn around. My family tells me that I was dying then. Now, almost twenty years later, I believe when the time comes again it will be wonderful to go and my loved ones will be there.
Date NDE Occurred: Nov. 1987
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related One week after surgery to replace failing aortic valve with plastic one...and I seemed to be getting well enough for discharge...I passed out and recall hearing voices saying emergency surgery needed to release blood collected near my heart that was squee Life threatening event, but not clinical death Surgery complications.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal My total being felt permeated by perfect peace and trust. I needed no awareness - I just was.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I saw my mother and felt her love.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning There was no time or space.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? It was sparkling clear as being bathed in light.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace, love, desire to stay.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control Seems I went through the tunnel so fast but there were movies of my early life on the walls. I learned to be more loving and accepting of others - not as judgmental as many things on earth are temporary toys - we are all God's children.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Jewish
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain More real personal faith but not limited to tradition and dogma.
What is your religion now? Liberal Jewish
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain More real personal faith but not limited to tradition and dogma.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I am far from perfect and it is okay to forgive myself and keep trying again. I know I will be blessed in death, and that all humans have that same possibility. We should recognize each other as different faces of God.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Immediately told my family (husband and children).
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I knew I had 'work' to do on earth.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It is peaceful to think about, especially as I am eighty-two years old.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I feel like it was a blessing.