Experience Description

I went to have a hernia repair, a one-day deal, but they kept me overnight. I stayed in the hospital from 26th November till 30th November.

The next morning, at around 5:00 am, I had a liver and kidney failure. The body began to fill with fluid. I stopped breathing. I remember watching medical staff from the corner of the room. At first, I thought that there was someone else in the room whom they were working on. Then I realized it was me. I felt peace and no pain. I felt someone else in the room but they didn't say anything, they were just watching like me.

I wish they had let me go, as I will die of liver failure (HCV), and don't want to go slowly. It was the first time in years I felt no pain and was at peace. If I could go back, I would!

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 11/27/2002

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related I assume as the Dr did that HCV played a large part Clinical death I had liver and kidney failure.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Disturbing

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I was watching from a corner of the room.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Confused.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain I believe there was someone to my right that wasn't part of this medical team and was there to meet me.

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I am very confused about it. Everyone says it wasn't your time, but I wish they had let me go.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I didn't want people to think I was nuts as I was very confused.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Best was the feeling of no pain, peace. Worst is not staying there as I have pain each day.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Yes! Most didn't want to hear it as they didn't want to believe that my HCV is this far along.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It was real, there is something about it which I don't know but am seeking an answer.