Although it was 5 years ago, I remember it like it was yesterday. I had this feeling like something or someone was dragging me down - trying to pull me under the hospital bed. It was very dark in the room. There was a window that overlooked the city outside, but when I tried to look at it everything was black.
Then I heard a noise like a swooping sound like a large pair of wings. I still had that feeling of being sucked down and it was overwhelming. I saw myself in the bed I was about 12 inches over my body. I heard a very low tone. I looked down to my feet and saw a being there. I felt negative feelings surrounding me. The being looked at me, with its red eyes and large wings. The being opened his wings and the wings engulfed the entire room.
It said, "We need you and the powers that you have."
I saw myself shaking my head and telling it that I had too much to live for. I had two young children to raise and that no power in this world or any other for that matter would take me from my children. At that point, the feeling of being sucked down got stronger and I kept trying to fight it. It felt like a very long time that I fought, but the next thing I remember is a nurse standing at my bed trying to wake me and yelling my name.
This took place three nights in a row. Every night I saw this large being. Every night I fought him with all the strength I had at the time. It was like the being knew I was weak and that was why he came to me to see if I could fight.
Date NDE Occurred: May 5, 1995, May 6, 1995, May 7, 1995
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes IllnessSurgery-relatedHeart attack The vagal nerve in my brain was tampered with during surgery causing my heart rate to drop to dangerous levels when I fell into a deep sleep Life threatening event, but not clinical death The first night my heart stopped in my sleep the following two my heart rate was extremely low at the time of the incidentMy vagal nerve in my brain was malfunctioning and this cause my heart to stop when I was in a deep sleep
How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes The first night I looked down on my body. I was only about a foot over it
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I believe the first night I was unconscious and the second and third nights my heart rate had dropped to dangerously low levels
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I knew where I was was. This was not anything I have ever experienced prior to this.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes The being was pure evil it was negative. I did not know the being and it communicated to me it wanted me for my power and strength
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Fear and strength
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe After the experience, I knew I had some kind of power something that was very special that power helped me get through the healing of my medical problems and also make me change my way of thinking about religion.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I knew I returned to my body when I felt the nurse pulling at my arm yelling my name and saying "Can you hear me?"
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist I was born and raise in a strict Irish roman catholic family
What is your religion now? Liberal Wiccan High Priestess
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I went from being married and going to church every Sunday at a Roman Catholic church. To completely changing my beliefs. I am now a Wiccan High Priestess
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I feel I have much greater power within myself. I know who and what I am. I have the power to feel changes around me. I can look at auras on people and see what they are before I even speak with them.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The fear and guilt was bad for a few months and then the best part was realizing that I did have a gift and I should start to use it . Since then I never regretted the experience
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes My children,husband, my mother and 2 close friends.I believe they were influenced by my experience and I tell them death is something they should not fear but they should embrace because it makes us stronger
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes At times when I am sick and feeling ill, I sometimes feel that feeling of sucking me in coming from the ground. I that point I lay back and think of all the positive things that I do have and the feeling seems to leave.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? The experience changed my life and the lives of those around me for the better. Even thought it was a negative one the changes it made have been and continue to be very powerful.