I was in a dark moist place that was warm. I felt totally peaceful there. Then a man in a blue shirt showed up and picked me up, and we went walking. The further we walked the brighter the light became, and he did, too. He carried me over a void place, and I was given to understand that it was hell, because there was no God there at all. It was a featureless plane that the person carried me through, all the while glowing brighter and brighter and the road we were on glowed brighter and brighter as well. Finally, we were out of the void spot and the person was so bright I couldn't look at him anymore. He carried me until we reached an area that looked like to me three windows onto heaven. There I was given to understand my place wasn't there yet, and I had to go back to my body. When I did, the pain was immense and immediate.
I am no longer afraid to die.
Date NDE Occurred: week of June 9, 2004 and through June 15, 2004
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attackAllergic reaction My liver, kidneys and heart quit. I was shocked 3 times and put on life support Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) My major organs were shutting down, and no one knew why. I was unaware of this, however. My liver failed first, then my heart stopped, then my kidneys failed. My husband found me turning blue in bed. I awoke, but my sense of hearing was gone and I couldn't talk correctly. He called 911.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I had never felt such peace and joy and welcoming in my life. I belonged there and they are waiting for me to return when it is time.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? While he was carrying me on the bright road while he and the road got so bright I was dazzled, and when I realized I had to go back to my body.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? I feel like I went from the shadow of the valley of death to complete light, and I did.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was the place where I was waiting for the light to come, but it wasn't a tunnel for me, it was just kind of dark, like gloaming time.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Just the man in the blue shirt, and we didn't talk, he just let me know things.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain It got lighter, but until the man in the blue shirt picked me up and started to carry me, then the light grew and got brighter and brighter.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The three ways into heaven were beautiful.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Joy, peace and awe.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I had been held up at gun point at the bank I worked for a few years earlier and had already had a life review at that time.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I was given to understand my place wasn't there yet. No, I had no idea of what would happen if I crossed the boundary, because I couldn't, it wasn't my time yet.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist Roman Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I pray more.
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist Roman Catholic
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I pray more.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The absolute peace and comfort I felt. The regret when I knew my place wasn't there yet and I had to return to my extremely ill body.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The sense of total peace and joy I felt. I have never felt that at all before like that. It is indescribable.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told my physician, and a nurse while I was still hospitalized. I told my husband, and my children and my psychiatrist after I was out of the hospital. I don't know if it affected anyone or not.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes My mother had one back in 1960, but it didn't sound anything like hers. She saw her body and I wasn't aware of mine. No, it didn't affect me.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. The experience happened, I questioned my doctor and psychiatrist to see if they thought that it was synapses of a dying brain, they didn't, and I don't either. Something like that had never happened to me before or since. It was real because it happened.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It was real, and if it had been a dream or such it wouldn't be so clear and bright like it just happened, and I'm not afraid to die, I'm ready.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? What physical problems remain after the NDE, and what senses had you lost prior to your NDE? Does anyone in your family think you got a miracle and why?