My throat totally closed up due to bacterial infection of my larynx. I wish I could say I had angels and lights going on around me, but that didn't happen to me. I couldn't speak or breathe and I was thinking - God, I am ready if it is my time, but I didn't get to say goodbye to anyone or tell my husband and boys how much I love them. I was in total darkness, but it was not a scary darkness. It was comforting and like a soft glove holding me. A voice I had never heard before spoke. The voice was reassuring and sounded like velvet- no rasp in it at all - it was male. He said slowly, 'They already know.' I then felt totally calm and at peace.
Date NDE Occurred: May 6, 2004
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Allergic reaction Clinical death
How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive
Did you feel separated from your body? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was alert.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No I did know it was very late - early into the morning hours. I also remember my son had to get up and go to school and I wanted my husband to be there with him instead of with me. I knew I was not alone.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Just the voice.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I felt like something soft and cushiony was holding me - like a very conforming thick foam material, but I was actually on a steel table in operating room.
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No A darkness, but not black. I was not afraid - it was more like a thick fog. The fog was more like a London fog, not an ocean fog.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe It will be okay to die - I didn't get to go beyond the fog - but I know it is peaceful and a voice was there who knew exactly what I was thinking.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I have ALWAYS been a very spleeny type of person who panics at pain or fear. I did not panic or fear anything at any time that night.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I knew I would be going back. I am not sure how I knew, but I was certain.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I was aware I was going back, yes.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes EVERYONE says I have changed except me - but no one has been able to say how they think I have changed.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I think the knowledge of what it is like to die is helpful to others. I have been where dying people are going and it is not scary or terrible.
I believe God spoke to me. That is just what I know - I have seen a bolt of lightning pass through a room I was in once - it is the most beautiful blue/green neon color I have ever seen. The voice I heard that night was similar to that - never have heard something so beautiful before.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I have a friend who lost her husband. I told her my story and she thanked me for sharing it with her.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I have a huge scar on my throat - I get lots of stares because of it. It is not something I would want to do again until it is REALLY time for me to go - it took a great deal of strength out of me.