Experience Description

It was during the birth of my first child. I was semi-conscious and bleeding internally. I had all the symptoms - high temperature and rapid heartbeat, but no visible bleeding. No doctors would come to operate. It was extremely painful. I remember everything.

The most disturbing aspect was that I tended to leave my body after the experience. It can be described as flying through out of space and reliving certain unresolved events throughout your life; as though you had to let go of these things before you moved on to the next world.

I thought at first that it could be post-traumatic stress that I was going crazy or it was the stress of having a young child. But since I have related these experiences to a near death experience, I seem to be able to cope with them a lot better. I am not scared of dying. In fact, I look forward to it as all your pain will be lifted.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 01/06/1989

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Childbirth Life threatening event, but not clinical death Hemorrhage during childbirth

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Very alert.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Just pain and the feeling that I wanted to die.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control That a car accident that happened when I was 19 was not my fault.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate

What is your religion now? Liberal

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The pain associated with almost bleeding to death. I actually used to leave my body a lot after the event. I thought I was going crazy, but it looked as though I was blacking out.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I constantly used to leave my body under stress.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The pain.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Do not be scared of dying. It is a relief.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? What about those who may have been traumatized. I am too scared to tell anyone as they may think that I am crazy.