I was rushed by ambulance and immediately into the resuscitation room. I had a lot of pressure, pain, and blood loss. They found it difficult to find veins for IVs and blood drawing because my veins had collapsed. I was aware of everything going that was happening. I was able to give them details of my operation and what medications I was taking. After they cut my nightie and underwear off, because they were completely soaked in blood, I begged them to let my husband in the room. I needed to make sure he didn't frighten my pregnant daughter with the news since she had high blood pressure. At this stage, my blood pressure was very low and my heart rate very high. I held my husband's hand, looked up into his face, told him that things were really bad and that I was 'going.' He tried to be reassuring but I felt I was slipping away. I told him I loved him and then everything went black. Quickly after that, I saw white light but was not aware of any sound or of medical staff taking him out of the room. My husband told me that as soon as I told him that I was going, my arm and leg fell off trolley and my eyes were fixed open. The next thing I remember was a heavy weight on my chest as if someone was sitting on it. My head was pushed back and the oxygen mask held very tightly on my face by someone. I felt like I was going a hundred miles an hour on the trolley along a corridor. I briefly remember giving my date of birth in the operating room.
Date NDE Occurred: 18.02.2016
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)
I had surgery initially on the 1st February with a hysterectomy, ovaries and fallopian tubes removed plus repair. Extreme pain ensued and the medical consultant was contacted on three separate occasions. They even scanned me but missed that I had post-operative bleed that ultimately caused a massive hematoma that burst through stitches, causing me almost to bleed to death.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely distressing
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes Brightest whitest light
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness Normal
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I hemorrhaged at home and the paramedics arrived, I was able to relay all of my personal details and history; also then when I was in resuscitation and I pleaded with them to let my husband into the room.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I have no idea what happened during this unconscious period other than seeing the light.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? No
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Normal
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Normal
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain It was an extreme tunnel shape of bright light but not a defined tunnel.
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Bright light that was tunnel shaped but not in a defined tunnel structure.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Fear and sadness, at what I was leaving behind.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? No
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant Non Church going/non praying
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I pray briefly each day.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant Stronger belief and praying
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I never understood the tunnel of light previously.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I believe that someone was watching over and protecting me.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God probably exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably does not exist
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife probably exists No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I moderately fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Family unit is a lot closer, prioritizing things that mean more to me.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Family unit much closer and more valued.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. It was traumatic and memorable.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? My survival
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared with my family the next day. They believe me as they were all traumatized by what had happened, especially my husband who saw me 'dying' on the trolley.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real My husband witnessed everything happening before my body went limp.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I know in my heart it was real and I am still unable to sleep. I'm currently having counseling.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
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