I was forlorn in my life and had wanted to die. I was a passenger in a car that was hit by drunk drivers. I recall nothing of my passage through the veil, but have vivid memories of where I went. It was a place, a domain that I knew right away was a transfer station - a place where beings go when moving between realms. It was like a city of crystal structures and verdant green trees and vegetation.
I went into a huge, huge beyond comprehension, perhaps dome-like structure where one would go to meet with enormous beings of light/energy/color to do the life review. I cannot describe the feelings of awe and wonder that I was immersed in.
During my life review, I understood that I had hardly begun to experience what I had incarnated this time to do/learn, and that I had a choice either to go back to my broken body as an adult, or to await another incarnation to pick up where I had left off. I was shown what was going on with Earth people at that time/place where I had just left, and what would be taking place over the next roughly fifty years. I decided that I did not want to do a re-run of my childhood and young adulthood again, and to return to the damaged body.
I returned to the body in the hospital, which had been unconscious for a week. I was told that my mother was by my side. I opened one eye and asked if it would be okay to return and if life was worth living. She said, 'Yes,' and I slipped in and out of consciousness for the next several days, when I began to adjust to the healing process with the body.
Date NDE Occurred: 'October 10,1980'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
I was killed in a car crash.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal When I was in the crystal city, transfer station.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was in the crystal city, transfer station.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
It is not a place of 'time' as we experience as physical beings on Earth. The phenomena of 'time' is unique and specific to this physical dimension we call 'life on Earth.'
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Lucid vision.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I didn't 'hear' with my ears. All information was simply transmitted through consciousness connection.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I don't recall the typical story people relate of moving through a tunnel and into the light.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Many beings were present in the crystal city or transfer station. Beings from all over Creation. Beings going about their own business. And there were the Great Masters of Light (whatever you want to call them), of which there were perhaps nine or twelve, with whom we experienced the life review.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The crystal city, the transfer station that I described above.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Joy. Wonder. Understanding. Awareness. Vast awareness. Comprehension.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control A complete, thorough, impossible to describe comprehension of everything that I experienced, felt, said, thought during the entire duration of my incarnation to date.
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I was shown what would be unfolding with humans on Earth over the coming fifty or so years. I have been back in this body now for thirty years, and everything is occurring exactly as had been shown - in relation to the larger picture of where Earth and the local humans would be headed. This is a time of great transformation - as had been described/shown to me during the life review.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal 'Raised in various Protestant churches; grandfather was a Fundamentalist lay preacher; I had been searching on a spiritual path since teen years - everything from various meditation and yoga techniques, initiated in Sufi practice, some years studying ''Great White Brotherhood,'' Edgar Cayce, mystic Christianity, Spiritualist, indigenous shamanism, etc., etc., etc.'
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes See my description above.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I continue to want all humans to be awake and aware of the continuum of life, both in and out of body. Being with other humans has a certain manner of loneliness for me.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes What I experienced is difficult to describe in words because even though I can tell the story, where I was, what I did there, what the place was like - I cannot give you the feeling, the veracity of it. It is SO REAL.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I returned to this body with a full blown psychic intuitive sensitivity - which I spent some years getting a grip on. It was out of control for some years. I had to learn how to manage it.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? For me, it was all about the transfer station/crystal city and the life review process with the ensuing decision to return to this body.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I first shared with someone who wrote a book of channeled material titled, 'The Law of One'. That was about eight months after the experience. Then, about twelve to eighteen months after the experience I was invited to talk about it as a presentation to about a hundred people. One of the people present came up to me afterward and told me about walk-ins and told me to read a book about it.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Keep in mind that I was in the hospital for a month with massive head injury, brain damage. Then I was six months at my parents' home learning how to function as a self-managing human. I was navigating brain damage dementia. I didn't know how to talk about what was going on with me to anyone during that time. I was in quite an altered state. Very psychic and in and out of normal consciousness referencing.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real The whole experience was very familiar while I was having it. I had done it many times before. I returned being aware that this physical incarnate experience is transitory.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No. I have written about it in different ways many times. I have talked with people about it over the years. It is a vast subject for me. And it is very simple, as well. The Buddha, The Christ and others have all summed it up in very simple terms. Be here now. Love is all there is. Life is a dream. The vastness. Source is beyond our comprehension.