I was brought to the ER by ambulance. While in the emergency room, I was awake part of the time and remember being stuck with more needles than anyone should ever be stuck with. The doctors now tell me that my skin was grey, my heart rate was 20, my blood sugar was too high to read and that they needed to put an IV in my neck with a temporary pacemaker or I would die. I told them do whatever they needed to do. That's when every got really far off in a distance. I could hear voices, but they were so far away.
There wasn't just one light. There was a black tunnel-shaped hole with hundreds of white lights literally flying from the tunnel and coming at me, trying to pull me in. The pull was extremely strong. I started going toward the lights. Then something went off in my brain and I mentally blinked my eyes to see if the lights and tunnel would go away. They didn't go, the pull got stronger. I was terrified. I yelled 'NO! I'm not ready! Go away!'
The next thing I remember was waking up on the table in the emergency room crying from fear. The doctors started apologizing to me for hurting me because of the tears. I couldn't tell them that I didn't feel any pain, I was afraid of the lights and tunnel. I know what that means and I'm not done with my life yet. According to the doctors, I should not have made it, and it was incredible how fast I'm bouncing back. I was actually released from the hospital the next day, but that memory will be with me forever.
Date NDE Occurred: 1/12/2010
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Life threatening event, but not clinical death
Stomach Virus/elevated blood sugar (unreadable)/heart rate of 20, and grey skin.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Frightening
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Mentally, I knew exactly what was happening when the voices faded into the distance and eventually disappeared. As far as consciousness physically, I don't remember what the doctors did. I didn't see it. All I could see were the tunnel and lights.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Being nowhere with a tunnel and the flying bright lights. There was nothing else at that point.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The tunnel and lights flying towards me, pulling me toward the tunnel were very real, very clear. The tunnel was way off in the distance. The lights were pulling me towards the tunnel. I remember the lights looking like stars. Brighter than I've ever seen.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There was no sound at that point. The voices of the doctors and staff had disappeared. It was just me, the tunnel and the lights.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No The tunnel was distant.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calmness at first, then total fear. I just wanted to go back to the ER and live.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No I've always believed in God and continue to thank him and pray for others who are in pain.
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No I've always believed in God and continue to thank him and pray for others who are in pain.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Mentally, I knew exactly what was happening when the voices faded into the distance and eventually disappeared. The lights were there to draw me into the tunnel and pass on.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I'm much closer to my family and now cherish every moment with them.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes About 6-8 hours later. They started crying with me because they all believe that I was there and say that the lights were my deceased friends and relatives coming to lead me to my final destination.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Only from movies. I knew what the tunnel and lights meant. That's why I was afraid. I am NOT ready to leave this world.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real There is NO question in my mind about that event. It was more real that I could ever have imagined.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I may not have gone as far toward the tunnel as others have, but the entire experience scared me beyond belief. I've seen stuff like this in movies, but I always thought it was just script and that it wasn't based on any facts. Now that I've been there, there is NO question in my mind at all about the reality of it.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I think it was all covered in the questionnaire.