I was at home. I felt like I had a bad case of heart burn, but it seemed more painful than any heart burn I had ever had before. The heartburn finally stopped and I went to bed for about four hours. When I woke up, the pain in my chest returned but was much worse that before. My shoulder hurt, my arms where going numb, and I was in a cold sweat. I called 911 and they arrived after about five minutes. I went from sitting on the bed to collapsing on the floor. I woke up and everything was very dark. I wasn't in any pain but felt very heavy. My body looked different and shapeless. I felt as though I had slowly came out of my body. I had this extreme feeling of heaviness; I wasn't scared, it was more of a pleasant feeling. Than a hand reached out to take mine so I reached out for it. Then I fell into a pleasant dream-state that felt as though I had been sleeping for like a half hour. All off a sudden I woke up on the bed with paramedics all around me. I felt upset because I was having such a pleasant dream and they had woken me up. Then one of them said, 'Sir, you have just had a heart attack. Your heart stopped for 15 seconds and we had to do CPR and shock you.' It felt like I had a pleasant nap for like a half hour. My main artery was blocked and they put two stents in my heart at the hospital. They kept me in the hospital for a week. I have some heart damage but I'm alive thanks to the paramedics.
Date NDE Occurred: May 2014
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt. Life threatening event, but not clinical death
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I saw complete blackness, and then a bright ball of light, and then a complete wave of calmness washed over me.
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I was aware of my deepest thoughts and fears; I knew I was on the verge of death. Yet I sensed a divine presence I had never sensed before. As if, something was holding me in place in this world so that I did not slip away.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I lost consciousness, it was as if I began experiencing everything more intensely and clearly.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I felt like time stopped because I thought I had died.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was sharper. I have bad vision, but I saw things more clearly.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing was sharper, as well.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
The experience included: Tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I just saw a light through a vast sea of darkness and the light got closer and closer.
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was a ball of light, which got bigger and bigger with each passing moment.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt calm, I felt safe. I no longer felt scared.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life I somehow knew that it was not my time to die and I simply awakened.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Atheist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Jehovahs Witness
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience Before my experience, I was skeptical of God's existence. Now I fully believe in God.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I definitely believe in God. Also, I have more self-confidence, and I have a better relationship with my family.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I believe it was God's presence within the light. God definitely exists.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are not meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I believe I was being comforted by the presence of God. An afterlife definitely exists.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I slightly fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Not compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I felt God's love as I was staring deep into the light.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I am trying to make a greater effort in learning the bible.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I am a better person, and I am regaining the trust of my family.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It was unimaginable. Something I had heard others talk about before but completely unfathomable to experience in person. The peaceful bliss is hard to describe. I had never been at peace with myself until I had this experience.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I could not remember much leading up to the event or after the event but I remember everything during the event.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I know it’s real because it was as if the truth revealed itself right before my eyes.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
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