I was sedated on the operating room table and under the effects of epidural anesthesia. Well into the surgery, I started feeling a pressure in my stomach that turned into nausea then suddenly disappeared. The surgical team later commented that at that moment I said, ‘I'm getting dizzy’ but I was not aware of having said it. Around me, I began to realize that everything was becoming dark and I could not open my eyes. Sounds became slower, as if from afar. To my right I heard the pulse oximeter checking my pulse. Every beep was becoming slower, and every time it sounding farther away. I wondered what was going on while my body sank into deep relaxation and began feeling an intense well-being, peace and tranquility within myself. Everything went absolutely black. I didn’t hear or see anyone. I saw no lights, no stairs, heard no voices. I would have died happily at that time. I wanted to die. I felt no fear. I know what it feels like to die and I'm ready. Then I went into respiratory arrest. They interrupted surgery and blamed it on a vasovagal attack. They were able to revive me and I woke suddenly, as one wakes up in the morning in bed, but happy and peaceful.
Date NDE Occurred: 26/09/2014
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Surgery-related. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
I had complications from surgery.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
Did you feel separated from your body? No
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Right before everything turned black.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Without a doubt time slows down.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? No
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I would say exactly the same.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I would say it remained the same.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt peace, tranquility, infinity and finality.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? No
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Not important to me
What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Atheist
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I definitely think that the spiritual life does not exist.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably does not exist
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes Creo que todo se apaga y morimos, sin continuar. Por algún motivo, el cuerpo reacciona de manera placentera ante el último evento de nuestras vidas.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God does not exist
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife does not exist No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? Unknown
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Slightly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my life Slight changes in my life.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes We have life and it is a gift. You cannot waste it or live with fears. At any moment it can be snatched away.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The sense of peace remains inexplicable. I also had the desire of ‘not wanting to wake up.’
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes They are surprised.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Perhaps not enough time has gone by to notice any changes.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I insist that perhaps not enough time has gone by to notice any changes since my experience. It’s only been 6 days since my NDE to my writing this. I believe that everything shuts off and we die, without continuation. For some reason, the body reacts in a pleasant way before this last event of our lives.
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