I was on the surgery table and so my eyes were closed, and I was in the state of general anesthesia.
I had a moment of expulsion out of my body, where I found myself floating in the air, and the pleasure of being able to see everything that happened around me; the discussions of the doctors, and life without me. After a short time, I saw a kind of tunnel of absolute whiteness, full of Love and joy. I entered into this tunnel and at the end I saw my grandparents and my uncle who died when he was in his twenties. I only knew my grandfather; it was happiness for me to know that they were fine. They asked me to join them in order to experience this moment eternally. I accepted immediately. As soon as I said, ‘Yes,’ a silhouette that strongly resembled Mary said to me, 'It's not your time, look'. She showed me my father on the way to see me, my mother starting to feel anxious as a doctor went to meet her and my sister. She then told me, 'It's not your time, please you have to go back down there, and then, I will give you something that you inherited'. At these words, I said good-bye to my relatives, quite sad to leave them, and the angel Gabriel took me down to earth.
At this moment, I suffered much pain as I had taken back my body that made me suffer. When I woke up, I was in intensive care and had bags of ice on my cheek. After a long time, a nurse 'transferred' me to her fellow stretch bearer to take me to my room where my mother was waiting for me.
Date NDE Occurred: Juin 2006
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain While under general anesthesia Other En cours d'opération
I cannot say exactly what I felt, as there had been feelings of fear and anguish at the beginning, then ending with great joy and absolute happiness.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes For example the discussion between the doctors, and the person that went to see my mother, who was worrying for me, to tell her that the surgery took longer than expected.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? At the moment when I saw my family
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
For me it was a long time, but in reality it was short. I have the conviction or the sensation that time is a facet of human life, and once gone it doesn't exist anymore.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. No change
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. No change
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
The experience included: Tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Tunnel of white light and serenity: Only happiness!
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My grandmother, my grandfather, my uncle
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes An immaculate white light
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place At the beginning it is an unknown place, but with the encounter of my deceased family it became a harmonious and peaceful place, where evil does not exist.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? At the beginning anguish, and almost all the rest was Love, joy and an incredible lightness. Above all: peace.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I felt like I crossed several astral planes.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No Possible previous lives
The experience included: Awareness of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future I cannot explain here: Too personal.
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I accepted my death, but was told that it was not my time.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Atheist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Towards Christian belief.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic Cet expérience m'a fait réfléchir et je me suis tourné vers le baptême, et actuellement, sur le chemin de la confirmation.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs I had at the time of my experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Taking some decisions in a different way
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin The Holy Virgin, Archangel Gabriel, my grandmother, my paternal grandfather and my uncle.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes Holy Virgin Mary and Archangel Gabriel
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes Previous lives.
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain Same as with question 32
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God probably exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes You have to question yourself, have to give love to others, make them happy and make good choices for our actual life.
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? Unknown
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes Meeting me if you have questions, as it is personal
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I slightly fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes You have to question yourself, have to give love to others, make them happy and make good choices for our actual life.
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Slightly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Giving love without expecting some in return
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I got baptized, and am now on the way for confirmation. Large changes in my life. I got baptized, and am now on the way for confirmation.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I had sensations of lightness, as if my body was like a 'cannonball' for me, and an intense Love. Finally, somebody who understood me and who was not judging me by my physical appearance.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Idem as 32
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Everything
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes My parents, certain friends
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It took me years before I understood what happened really. I didn't tell it immediately to my parents what I experienced, as I didn't realize it and told myself that I was the only one having experienced this, and that people would think of me as being nuts.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I look at life differently.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes People around me that had an experience.