I was sitting in the bathtub with my friend, it was raining outside. We felt as if our feet were falling asleep and a second later, there was a tingling over our entire bodies. I saw how my friend managed to get himself out of the bathtub and then I lost my breath. I went underwater and my lungs filled with water and for a short time, it was painful. But suddenly I saw myself from above laying underwater with my mouth and eyes wide open and thought, 'what a horrible sight!'
The next thing I remember is that I was COMPLETE, I was at a place that was/is very familiar to me (The woods where I went walking my dog) But I understood!! What I didn't see with my eyes was becoming suddenly aware that I was no longer in this world; the water was such a beautiful blue, a swan was swimming there which seemed to be glowing from the inside out, it was radiant. Everything radiated an indescribable light and I was part of that light, everything was part of that light. It was a feeling of rest, love and serenity I had never experienced in my life - the feeling of fulfillment, of being complete, without pain, without a body. When I realized I was without a body it felt as if a block of granite had been lifted from me. I could comprehend my pure self. I was just a dot but just as lively and at the same time as softly radiant as everything around me.
The grass was greener than green and smelled mildly wet but inviting. The trees and their leaves shimmered and the sound of the wind was as music. I saw the park bench and was immediately drawn to it; there was someone there. At first I saw only his/her light as I joined in the 'information room' (It seemed to be coming out of him, he KNEW what I wanted to know) I saw that it was the father of my son; it seemed as if we had never been apart. We were happy to see each other again but not ecstatically although not sad either. It was as if we saw each other again after he had gone shopping. The feeling of all the answers to my questions coming from him also seemed to be coming from a surrounding and present Power. I don't want to use a name like God or Allah because I felt a Universal love, an endless love which is present in each of us, the knowledge of everything. I was so happy there and didn't want to leave, but my ex-friend told me suddenly that I had to go back. I knew why and yet I didn't want to return. But before I could resist what HAD to happen, I was drawn away and it became ice cold and dark as soot around and in me. I was back in my body and became hysterical; I kept asking the rescue team WHY they had brought me back! When I told them I had watched how they had re-animated me and pointed to the rescuer who did it and to the one who did the heart message, I got the blunt answer that they would be injecting me with a strong tranquilizer if I didn't shut up!? This is the first time in eight years that I have dared to share this.
Date NDE Occurred: 2005
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Other elektrocutatie.
My lungs were filled with water and 240 volts went through my body.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Same as No. 4 above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The moment I got all the answers to my questions; I didn't have to ask, I was in the 'Information pool' also when I was able to comprehend the landscape in detail.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Everything went very fast but at the same time it was very peaceful.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything had brighter color which seemed radiant, everything was radiant. I could observe everything at once, above, below, left and right without distortion.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The babbling of the water in the brook where the swan was swimming, the sound of the wind through the leaves and waving the grass was as music, everything was in harmony.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain It all happened so fast; it went dark for a little while but I couldn't make out a tunnel, it happened too quickly.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes He was sitting on a park bench and I recognized him as the father of my son. He seemed to readily possess all information and was willing to share it with me and I understood.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I was one with the light, I saw it and it observed me as I observed the light in me; the light was Love and familiarity.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm ik was in het bos waar ik mijn hond steeds liet dollen maar het was niet hetzelfde bos het leek er sterk op maar het was niet in deze dimensie heel de ervaring was niet in deze dimensie
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, happiness, peace and especially, serenity.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I knew four years prior to the event that I would have a daughter! Not till I was pregnant and the doctor said it would be a girl did my friend believe me.
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes When he said that I must return and it became clear that I had received the necessary information and wasn't allowed more questions and was not allowed to stay. It was almost as if I had run out of time and HAD to leave, otherwise I would not be able to fulfill my tasks.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate wist het niet zo goed
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I no longer believe in the god with the long white beard and sandals. I believe in a Universal Love, which is so great that it is impossible for a person to express in one word.
What is your religion now? Moderate geen geloof wat op deze wereld word vertegenwordigd
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I no longer believe in the god with the long white beard and sandals. I believe in a Universal Love, which is so great that it is impossible for a person to express in one word.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I got to see the face of a baby, a girl and I knew that this would be my child. Four years later this did indeed happen. I also saw that my future would be very hard and I was warned about the dangers that would be coming.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes My friend is sometimes afraid of my intuition but is more open to the theme.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Yes
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I have very strong intuition and feel irritability coming on in the form of a mild panic attack and image storm. I predicted the death of my friend's grandmother.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Everything was special, each detail.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Only with my friend and my doctor. They both called me crazy.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had read a few books on this topic but didn't know how much faith I should put in it. I doubted how much truth there was to it.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Experience was definitely real because everything fell into place; no more questions and the whole experience was as real as this reality/dimension. I was given predictions some of which later happened and others, which have yet to happen but I KNOW they will.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real This was because of the prediction of the not yet conceived child, my child.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes 3 suicide attempts only because I wanted to go back, but the last time it was not so nice. I was told rather firmly to go back and these two words were said very clearly: NOT YET! I knew that it was because of my responsibilities to my daughter.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I am glad meanwhile to be in this world but yearn for that rest. But I KNOW that I will only be allowed there after I have completed my tasks and have learned more; there is still a lot of work in store for me here. It was the nicest accident I ever had; I was AWAKE for a little space in time.