After being hit from behind by a drunk driver at 3:55 am on highway I-10 in Southern California, while lying on the side of the highway, and before the ambulance arrived, having been seriously injured, a very real and clear man's voice asked if I was ready to go. I answered no, I needed to say goodbye to my two children and not put them through this at this time. Before I heard his voice: I was walking down a dark street, I kind of recall seeing the area before. I felt lost and it was getting late, 'knew I should be home before now'. As I turned the corner, I saw the cutest little house, all lit up and the yard, with a white picket fence was full of people, all welcoming me. They were so glad to see me. I felt my deceased father's presence, but unclear which person he was in the large group - there was so much love and warmth. A wonderful feeling. The best place I'd ever been/seen and I felt so loved. Then when I heard the voice, and answered NO, the scene was gone. Until I said NO, I felt no pain from my two broken femurs, broken hip, fractured ribs, arm partially torn off, cuts to face - -from being ejected from my pick-up and thrown over two hundred feet from the impact. I was hit from behind by a car traveling over a hundred mph with no headlights on. As soon as I answered the man's question, I felt no pain, was warm, secure, and comfortable - then the pain started, I couldn't move any part of my body. Blood everywhere and the ambulance had arrived and was trying to move me - I was never scared.
Date NDE Occurred: 6/29/1987
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Life threatening event, but not clinical death . Near fatal car accident.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Noticed and recalled every small detail.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? It is on the accident report, 'at no time was patient unconscious' I knew the answer to every question and was able to talk to the emergency medical technicians.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Because it was pitch black with the lighting, except from occasional traffic. Not sure.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No Didn't have any feeling of a tunnel, or bright light other than the well-lit house and yard in front.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Warmest greeting I ever experienced. They were all familiar, but couldn't name them - they were calling to me.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain House lighting. Normal well lit house lights. Every light in house was shining.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm the street and house was very real and natural...just a "pretty little house" nothing fancy or different..very homey
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calm. Never scared. Everything would be okay.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control Lost all fear of dying. Have never felt very upset or sad when someone passes away. I know they are where they want to be. Not afraid or scared.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain There is a hereafter. We go on forever with those we love around us.
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain There is a hereafter. We go on forever with those we love around us.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes There is a hereafter and we will all be together. No pain, cold, hunger, sadness.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Life is more simple, friends and family are more important to me. Time together is meaningful. I try to express the feeling to others, that we are all important to each other - no need for regret or sadness if we lose someone. They are okay and waiting for us to all be together again.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Learned what the end was all about.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes When those close to me have died, I've tried to explain to those left behind, what their loved ones would experience and that it was okay. Most found it hard to understand.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes When I was twenty-one years old, I was near death, while in the hospital having my daughter. I heard the same 'man's voice' asking me if I wanted to 'go' - but never understood. So when I heard it this time, I knew exactly what it was.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I know that we all have the choice to go beyond. Time to leave this plane is our choice. Only when we are finally through here, do we go on. We can stay here, sick, old, until we are ready to leave.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Even if there is a sudden occurrence, we still have a choice to stay or go - no matter how serious the injury, etc. I was not expected to live; even the emergency medical technicians thought I was going to die. They were surprised when they learned I was still alive. They came to my intensive care unit room to say hello.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No