You know when you look in the clear bright blue sky and see some fluffy white clouds - I was in those clouds. The peace and serenity I felt is something I will never forget!! I saw a dark figure in the distance (I believe it was my dad) and the voice said, 'It's not your time you have things to do, it's not your time you have to go back.' At this time I opened my eyes to see the police standing at my feet shaking his head saying to my mother, 'You are lucky you even have a daughter.' From there I just remember the nurse at the hospital saying, 'You should not even be here,' as she was shaking her head. From there my very painful healing journey began!!
Date NDE Occurred: August 1998
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Criminal attack Other: an ex-partner attempted to kill me by overdose and almost succeeded
An ex tried to kill me because he had to go back to jail. My daughters were in the apartment and walked into the bedroom where I lay blue! If it was not for them I WOULD NOT BE HERE!!!
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I would say when I heard the voice and then when I say the police officer, as well as the nurse's words.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Only felt what was happening. Not aware at the time that it was not here. Only later did I really understand where I had been!
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The purity and powerfulness is incomparable with day to day feelings. NOTHING comes close to it!!
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The only thing I can say is that it was so incredibly clear and powerful.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Again - the dark figure in the distance that I saw I truly believe was my dad who had already passed on!!
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain I was IN the light!!!
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The place where I was, was clearly not from this demention!! the bright light beautifull place I was, is really hard to put in words...But will NEVER forget the feeling
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? That I felt the peace and serenity that made me feel safer than I ever have!
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate none
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain I just don't know what I believe yet. I do believe in angels stronger now though - I have seen them.
What is your religion now? Moderate still trying to figure it out
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I just don't know what I believe yet. I do believe in angels stronger now though - I have seen them.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes All I know is that at the time I was meant to be doing something very significant. It has taken some very hard work to get to where I TRULY BELIEVE the message I was given to fulfill, has been clearly shown to me. At least it has taken me a while to figure it out and start to fulfill it!! What an INCREDIBLE experience and gift!!
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Again - I would not be the same strong caring women I am today!!! I have to help others and I will continue, only now it is going to become in a very large scale!!
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I was aware of some of the 'gifts' I have however there were definitely ones that became clearer and stronger over time after the experience.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The Angel had a great deal of meaning as well as my dad. I truly feel and believe my dad literally 'Put' me in that angel's arms that night!! He knew I had many very difficult times ahead and desperately needed the angel's help!!! And that is just what happened.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Probably about almost a year before I felt safe enough to talk about it. Everyone that I have since talked to have really all been in awe, especially ones that have known me for a while and know that what I say is a hundred percent truth. Most also have said they do believe that I am meant to do big and great things.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes A few years before the experience I am talking about, I was very sick in hospital. My red blood cells were bursting and I had already lost almost half of my blood. My doctors did not expect me to live through the night. However I showed them!! At my worst, I saw a huge angel beside me, and then I saw my dad who had recently passed away. He reached down to me and I saw him with a new born baby in his arms, he then turned around and passed this baby into the arms of this most beautiful angel that was already there. From this point, I started to get better. I was in hospital for six weeks but did make a full recovery. I then also had started to hear the song, 'in the arms of an angel' EVERY where I went!!
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I right away knew my dad was there to help save my life (I had four small children who needed me).
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real There is no doubt in my mind that what I thought at the time, most definitely has happened!! I have been through severe hell and back more than once since then and know with all my heart that I would NOT be the strong incredible women I have now become with so much to offer if I had not had the experience and guidance I have had!!!!
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No But I have had other 'premonitions' that have happened before these experiences.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Probably but I think I'm just too tired to think.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? At this time I really am getting too tired, I probably should have started this earlier. I did however find this very thorough (please excuse my spelling) and well put together!! Thank you for the opportunity to tell some of my story. I have also had many intense dreams happen! Some I would never have believed!