This is what I saw and felt. At the time, I thought it was a dream. I woke up in a place that looked like a rose garden. I couldn't see anything else just roses and I remember it being really bright and white. There was a bench, I sat there, and I was crying. Not because I was scared but because I felt so happy. Next, a man sat next to me, I could not see his face but in my heart, I wasn't scared because I knew he was Jesus. Before I could say anything, he just told me that it wasn't my time and that my family was waiting for me. I asked him if I could please go with him but again he said I had to go because my family was waiting. I started crying even more because I didn't want to leave him. Next thing I remember is waking up in someone's driveway at the accident scene.
Date NDE Occurred: Summer 1987
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Accident Had gotten ran over by an automobile. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening Not sure, all I know was that I had been ran over by an automobile. The first time I actually went under the auto. The driver passed a second time and hit me. I flew about fifteen feet away from the auto and ended up in a driveway. I'm not sure what my condition was at the time because I was not conscious.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal After I had the experience. I was not conscious during my experience.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? After I had the experience. I was not conscious during my experience.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I felt like I was there for about an hour.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? It was very bright and things seemed to be foggy. Nothing really looked solid but I felt like I knew what everything was.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I really don't think I was able to hear anything through my ears. When I was experiencing it I felt as if I was told in my mind.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I just remember seeing a bright light all of a sudden. I don't recall if I went through anything. I just remember it being dark then all of a sudden really bright.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes To me it felt as if it was Jesus, he came and sat on a bench with me. It was then that he told me it wasn't my time and that my family was waiting for me.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A very bright cloudy looking light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm yes, I saw the most beautiful rose garden I have ever seen. No soil, no grass. Just rose bushes and a bright white light.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Happiness, peacefulness, safety, complete. Then towards the end when Jesus told me I could not go with him I felt extreme sadness.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate Catholic
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain What I saw is not hard to describe. It is the peacefulness and beauty that I felt that is indescribable.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I feel as if when I just look into someone's eyes I can tell if that person is good or evil. I have never been able to explain it but I am always correct. I tend to 'feel' things when someone in my family is upset or in pain and I try to get a hold of them via phone or email or I go visit them.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The peacefulness I felt when I heard Jesus' voice. It was calming and a beauty that is amazing. What I saw was also breathtaking. It was the whole experience that is significant to me.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes It has been eighteen years since my accident. I told my mother last week and she said I was very lucky because I was able to 'feel' Jesus. I told my friend this afternoon and he is the one that suggested this website to me. He was actually pretty excited that he knows someone that this has happened to.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I knew it was real because as a child and even now as an adult the paranormal has always frightened me. Usually the smallest of things would scare me and with this experience, there was no fear whatsoever. It was the complete opposite.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Well, I started reading different experiences that children had and I feel my experience is similar. I was nine years old when this happened. I still get choked up when I really sit and think about what happened to me. It was beautiful.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Thank you for giving me the opportunity to fill this out.