Experience Description


I had a heart attack and was getting catheterized, two stents, died twice on the table, was defibrillated twice, burned pretty good. I saw bright vivid crystal fabulous colors very vivid and peaceful. Heard people yelling my name Henry, over and over again, I used some very vulgar language (ex-New York cop) I did not want to come back, did not want to be bothered. For two years I never told anyone, anything other than I absolutely have no fear of dying anymore, for fear I was an odd-ball, I never saw a tunnel, never saw Jesus, a bright light etc. Just that beautifully colored deep cut crystal. Then one day my wife and I were talking to an herbalist, and she was talking about NDEs, which I never even heard of before, well I told her my story and she believes I had an NDE.


The doctor said that I needed to go to Burlington for a catheterization. Get on the table, the tech says, 'Do you want to see the procedure?' I said, 'yes.' So they go in the artery in my right thigh. He says you will see a small wire, I do, they have three TV screens, I see my heart beating, really neat. Then the wire comes in the main artery. The tech says okay now I am going to put in the dye - a color contrast - and I watch my heart go black. I grab my chest yelling pain, pain, and the next thing I know is the crystal, the yelling, etc. So did I have an NDE? Who was the Irish nurse? I was on no drugs, my wife saw and spoke to the nurses herself so I think I am not totally nuts. I am hoping you can tell me what I experienced.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: February 8, 2001

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Surgery-related. Heart attack Life threatening event, but not clinical death had heart attack and was getting catheterized, two stints, died twice on table, was fibbed twice burned pretty good. I saw bright vivid crystal fab colors very vivid and peaceful. Heard people yelling my name henry, over and over again, I used some veryI was diagnosed with kidney cancer the previous month and was en-route to see the surgeon in Burlington when I had the heart attack close to Central Vermont Hospital (CVH). Here is where it really gets weird. My wife a licensed Registered Nurse was driving. I told her I was having a heart attack. She says no it's just nerves. I responded 'BS' I am having a heart attack!!! She pulled into CVH. I said, 'chest pains.' They rushed me to the rear with my wife present. This brunette nurse five feet six inches tall, one hundred and ten pounds weight, with thick Irish brogue comes in says lie down. I said I can't, the pain increases when I try. She reaches out, touches my shoulder and says the pain is gone lie back, The pain was gone and I did lie back. She then says in this thick Irish brogue, 'You had a heart attack. The first blood work will be negative. The second blood work will show positive,' and at this she exits the room. I looked at my wife puzzled and said she sounds exactly like my aunt Brigit, who raised me when I was very young, my mother had a drinking problem, this aunt Brigit was called a saint - always cared for family members devout catholic, never married, died around 1957. The doctor comes in and another nurse, they examine me do blood etc. The doctor says we are going to keep you overnight. I asked who was the Irish nurse? They both look at one another and say what Irish nurse? The doctor says we have no Irish nurse. My wife says I saw her; she has a thick Irish accent. Both say we have no nurse like that. We then described her again; they say no such person works here. That was about 9:00 am 02/07/2001. At about 6:00 pm more blood taken from hospital bed. About 8:00 pm the doctor says well the first blood test and exam showed nothing, but the second shows you had a heart attack.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Deeply engrossed and focused in a very pleasant and comforting way. I did not want to be disturbed or come back to the voice of the tech yelling my name. He said, when I asked what the hell that stink was, we lost you twice we had to defibrillate you and burnt all the hair off your chest. I had burn marks for a week from that.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? 1. The nurse at CVH.

2. On the table before I went out.

3. Looking at the crystal I would say I was totally focused.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did your vision differ in any way from normal? The colors were so vivid I can't explain the colors, and I noticed when I moved my head ever so slightly the colors shot all over with such intensity I was absolutely amazed, engrossed, relaxed.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain If you consider the colors light yes, very much so. I now consider the colors light.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm the colors the cut crystal sa previously described

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Total amazement marveled at such color and discovering I could make them shoot around by ever so slightly moving my head, the depth of the crystal cuts, emotionally at peace, relaxed comforted, safe totally at ease and enjoying it a lot.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future Again no border or anything, but quite frankly I was very pissed off when I heard those voices calling my name. I did not want to go back.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain I now know of God but I believe now all religions pray to the same God and religions are mostly fear based and political bodies with a little of God thrown in, and again love is all there is. I don't go to church I don't feel the need I know I am connected to a loving God just like you who are reading this are.

What is your religion now? Moderate

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I now know of God but I believe now all religions pray to the same God and religions are mostly fear based and political bodies with a little of God thrown in, and again love is all there is. I don't go to church I don't feel the need I know I am connected to a loving God just like you who are reading this are.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes After I came around, ever since that I know there is more to the other side and it will be great. I remember hearing very distinctly 'LOVE IS ALL THERE IS' twice by an unknown male voice; those words are now burnt in my mind forever.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes More humble, no fear of death. I believe there is a God somewhere. I believe we go someplace great, I believe the voice that love is all there is, and it's not the Beatles song.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I did not hear or read since the incident about anyone seeing what I saw. Everyone else reported bright white light, Jesus, tunnel, departed loved ones etc., etc., etc. I saw these vivid colors of what I believe to be crystal, and the overwhelming feeling of knowing, there IS an afterlife and it is good, no fear of death whatsoever! Not to sound sick, but hearing of deaths since then I feel kind of glad for them and look forward to returning myself to wherever it was.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Not after but that Irish nurse before the event I just can't understand. No other issues.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? All of them amaze me; I was never given to such stuff. As a New York cop, I saw a lot of death I worked as a narcotics detective, no-knock strike force. We kept sane by joking about very bad situations; this experience has humbled me very much. I am different.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes About two years the herbalist says the crystal is in the Bible, that I went straight through to heaven, that's why I never experienced anything else. I don't know what she means. My wife and I are both amazed at the whole thing. I really don't know how friends and relatives were influenced - they seem unaffected when I insist they not ever worry about death - perhaps they think I am a little cuckoo.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain I heard about a bride Murphy when I was a kid about some woman who claimed to have lived before, I heard quips about people saying there was life after death and the tunnel and light, but never the colors or crystal.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Inexplicable, amazing unbelievable, but always very real ever since it happened.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. The same all very real yet inexplicable, I never heard anyone else seeing crystal or colors and definitely the Irish nurse.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No I wish.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I sincerely would love to know if anyone else has ever reported any of my things, crystal, colors etc.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I am glad to have found this one, I never knew of such a website I feel surprised you knew so many questions to ask that fit the experience I had.