I was in a friend's house with another three friends. I needed to go to the bathroom. I entered my friend's bathroom. The light was on. All of a sudden I heard a clatter on the floor, as if something fell over, but I could see nothing: I was conscious of being upright in total darkness (later I was told that the noise was my body falling to the ground and upsetting a trashcan).
It was dark and I wondered what I was doing there. Then for some reason, I took a big, wide step to my left. I was in another place. The sun was shining, it was warm, and it was beautiful. People were all happy, content, and busy. Many children. I remember my dead grandfather with his arm round me - he was showing me a building. There were many children. I didn't question anything, it was all 'meant to be'. It felt like coming home. But then I heard a voice say, 'You will remember nothing of this,' and a wrench. I was back in my body but I didn't know it.
I was just conscious of being inside something, totally quiet, totally still. Then I breathed and that was incredible. It felt like the universe expanding in me. Then I opened my eyes and saw my friends above me, worried. Their lips were moving fast and their faces were excited but I could hear nothing. All of a sudden, someone turned on the volume: I heard them speaking mid-sentence. Really odd. I 'knew' I had 'died'. I was really afraid 'they' would come back for me. This was in contrast with my personal beliefs but I can't ignore that it happened to me.
Date NDE Occurred: 1994
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Allergic reaction Life threatening event, but not clinical death Cessation of breathing for 3/4 minutes
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time was not of the issue. I didn't breathe for about four minutes but I seemed to be away for longer.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Everything vivid and ultra real, colorful.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? People spoke to me but I can't remember what they said.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I was in a void, then I stepped to my left.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Loads of people, and children. My dead grandfather.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Just a beautiful landscape, grass, flowers, water and trees.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Joy, rightness, calm, love.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control If that was death that's okay!!
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal none
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I'll be curious when I die.
What is your religion now? Liberal none
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I'll be curious when I die.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes 'It's that easy' and 'why don't we know it's this simple'?
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It seemed so taken for granted in an odd way - as if it had always been and always would be. In this way it is hard to relate to everyday life situations.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I left my body several times when I was young and had some unusual experiences of a mystical nature.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? How I felt was unrepeatable.
I am perplexed that this voice told me I'd forget everything - and I forgot what I said to those people and what they said to me, and what they were doing.
It was so real, when I woke I was shivering and petrified that I'd go back. I was too young.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I talk quite freely about facts, so I don't usually hide my NDE when the conversation is right and the people are liberal enough to listen without prejudice. Some believe. Some don't.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Though I'd heard of NDEs I had no idea I was going through one when it happened.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Gratitude I was still alive. However, the NDE was so realistic, I took it for granted and wasn't surprised at it.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real. Though I am currently investigating recent discoveries about the brain and its functions, too many people describe similar things, and I can't ignore that I lived through it!
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No