In the sixth month of my pregnancy, I KNEW that something was going to go wrong. I was well, in good health, yet I started marking off the days until my due date. My husband said that I was crazy, that nothing was going to happen. I told him that either my baby was going to die, or both of us would. A month later, in late December of 1968 - I got the flu. I called the doctor and he prescribed medications. I had a raging fever for three days; the flu had turned to pneumonia. My baby was born six weeks early. He lived two days.
I remember going to the hospital and being put onto a cart. Then I given medications. I remember being rushed down a hall with lots of people around me. Then there was nothing. Suddenly I was jerking, and my body being lifted off the cart. This happened three or four times. My cousin's wife told me afterward that eight people had been working on me, that my heart had stopped.
Sometime between the efforts of those to start my heart - I found myself in a tunnel. I believe that I saw figures on my right, and left sides as I went down this tunnel. And then I saw this light, like the sun's light, but buffered. A beautiful white light with touches of gold. A wonderful warmth radiated from it. He spoke to me, not verbally, but I heard him in my heart. The thoughts were loving and kind coming from HIM, but I do not remember what was said. I begged, and pleaded to be allowed to return. I had a four year old daughter, and was concerned about her future without me. So I didn't say 'please, please take me', I said 'please, please let me return'. And I did.
Now it's strange because I did not experience the out of body experience before dying. I was lying in bed in my room. I was also up on the ceiling looking down at myself. Two men walked into the room. One of them told the other that they thought they had lost me. The other said, 'Well what did you do?' The first man said, 'We didn't give up - we just kept working on her.' I then returned to my body. Neither of those doctors even suspected that I overheard their conversation.
I have had trouble with my blood pressure for years, since that time in fact. When I went to the doctor last year, they took tests. She later told me that I had had a heart attack in the past. I just shrugged my shoulder. LOL I never speak of that time to anyone. I have told a few people about the experience, and they would just look at me like I was nuts. LOL.
I did learn some wonderful lessons from my experience. One, I had doubts about life after death until that time. I was a believer in Jesus, but couldn't accept life after physical death. Two, I have been more sensitive to those around me, given an extra measure of Mercy since that time. Three, I do not fear death now. There is pain and suffering in disease, but death is just a doorway to the Warmth, Love, and Acceptance of the LORD.
I was not ever supposed to have more children; I had two more healthy babies. I could not get life insurance when I was thirty, because I was not supposed to live long. I am now sixty-four, and have been blessed with more years of life than many others who were born in the same year as me.
I guess that is all to my story. It's not fancy! No angels, no heavenly music - BUT the LIGHT - and HE is more than enough.
Date NDE Occurred: 01/06/1969
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Childbirth 'Flu, high fever, kidney failure, heart stopped' Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) . Severe pneumonia with organ failure.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal When I met the God of Creation.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I met the God of Creation.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning It was 'all time', how do I describe this? I knew that I was at the gate. I knew that there was no time then - it had stood still for me. I was very aware of what was happening. It was as though time was in double time, yet wasn't moving at all. Does that make sense? I don't think so, but that is how it was.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Wore glasses for years, didn't have them on - needless to say. Everything was crystal clear. I don't remember many colors. Maybe, everything just blurred in the Light of God.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I heard with my soul.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes All I can say - it was a tunnel, but don't remember any color. I remember it seemed as if I was flying - a breeze pushing me. It was as though I could see that breeze on either side of me? Passing people on the sides of me?
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain I didn't meet the people in the tunnel. I never thought of this, but maybe they were there to help me. Now that I remember, I believe that there was someone with me, alongside of me - when I came to the light.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A beautiful light, a soft and glowing light. Warm, with fringes of yellow coming from the center of that light. Such JOY to be in HIS presence.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Gee, at first I wondered - 'What the heck is going on here?' But I enjoyed it, peering in on a conversation without the knowledge of those deep within it.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I have always believed. I sometimes wondered if God was listening to me before the experience, but after - I knew - and know that he is always listening.
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I have always believed. I sometimes wondered if God was listening to me before the experience, but after - I knew - and know that he is always listening.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I knew my real purpose, which was to follow the LORD.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Oh yes. Never was patient before, now have lots, and lots of patience. I have a lot of discernment too, which I didn't have before. I have empathy, and understand that none of us are ever going to be perfect in this life.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes My gift of Mercy. I also have been able to put my hands several inches above a person, or animal and feel their current. I can feel where there is a problem. I do not use this. I also seem full of electric current myself. I can be petting one of my cats, and sparks will fly. I am Charged. LOL.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? It was the fact that I was so loved by God that he actually allowed me a glimpse of Himself, so that I might know that life is forever. I just feel really bad that I kicked up such a fuss to return. I knew that I would see HIM again someday. My heart was torn into with worry about my little girl.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Took years before I described my experience. No one reacted just glared. I don't know if anyone was influenced.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It has always been real to me that will never - ever change.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I carry this experience with me for the rest of my life. I am far, far from perfect. But my experience changed my basic outlook on the gift of life to us.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? Yes, another experience: I ran off a two lane highway going fifty miles an hour. Trying not to hit an armadillo. I guess I was about fifty at the time. As I headed toward the four foot ditch, my life passed in front of my eyes. I said 'God, Please don't let me get hurt, God, Please don't let me get hurt.' The car rolled over three times, front to back. As I left that lonely road - I felt arms enfold me. I felt protected and warm. When the car finally landed, facing the direction that I came from, all the windows busted. Smoke poured out of the dashboard. I turned off the motor. The passenger side window was open enough for me to crawl out onto the ground. Someone saw me go off the road, turned around and came back to me. I was standing on the roadside at that point, I was taken to the fire department, and then to the hospital. I had forgotten my purse in the car. The next day, a fireman came out with my purse. He looked stunned when I opened the front door. I asked, 'What's wrong?' He said, 'Miss, I saw that car you were in, and we should have had to use the Jaws of Life to get you out of it. And at that, if you weren't dead, you shouldn't have been walking.' I bumped my elbow in that accident. Don't tell me I don't have a guardian angel looking out for me, because his big loving arms were wrapped around me to protect me when my car went off the road.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I think that it is wonderful that you folks are investigating this experience. I just know that it is real for me, and millions of others. Keep up the good work.