It was about ten years old when I had the first NDE. I was sleeping and felt myself go into another world; I like to call it the 'Second Origin Space'. It was a very black darkness (it contrasted strongly with the castle in my other NDE). I think the appropriate words to describe it would be like the 'windmill' and 'black hole' visual effect atmosphere in the software 'Windows Media Player'.
There were extreme disordered noises, images and feelings. I only say it was chaos. Then I shouted loudly, 'Let me go! Let me go!!' (After the event, my mother told me.) It was fearful terror. My parents were impressed by my emotion and were scared. I am sure it was a near-death experience. At that moment, I had a dyspnea and was nearly asphyxiated to death. I had a similar situation in subsequent years.
When I was twenty years old, I had a dyspnea again. I saw a very bright light and reviewed my life from beginning to end all at once. Time as I had known it came to a halt. Everything was uttermost beautiful, profound. They were beyond description.
Sometimes I could not move when I was in the ecstasy and found some strange things. For example, I found the things that were not in my room or still things were alive, I had acousma and heteroptics in daytime, I fly very fast to sky from the earth by an aircraft and I felt really the wind. The still things communicated with me and we didn't use any language. I found that we had common ground. The inner of us are chemical material. We all have souls and white light - very bright light, very beautiful. I felt very lost when I woke up. It seemed as if somebody had a lot of money in his dream and he found he had two empty hands when he woke up.
Here I emphasize that the different between these feelings with dreams is the sense of reality. Unlike the dim sense in a dream, I had a strong sense of reality. I saw a big, brilliant, golden and colorful castle as if it was in a fable. How beautiful it was. Everybody should feel this experience so that there are few fights in this world.
These experiences are really beyond description. It seems like that somebody falls in love and doesn't know how to express the sweet sense. Before that time, I didn't know that people could experience the great sense. After that time, I know many things easily as if I have a doctor degree and study in primary school. I am sorry I can't express the meanings well.
Give Thanks to the LORD who richly blessed me. After that time I often repent and think God's favor. Death isn't fearful. The anxieties about future uncertainties are fearful in fact. People should prepare for the death. A famous proverb says, 'The meanings of life are what we have done and experienced.' Love and knowing the truth are the most important.
God is light. God is love.
Date NDE Occurred: 1994年到1995年的某一天
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes 睡觉 Life threatening event, but not clinical death Special KnowledgeDuring my sleeping I had a dyspnea and was nearly asphyxiated.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? My own personal opinion is that it is the difference of my attention. Although I am not sure that there is another world. I think there is another world for the moment. When we are in this world, we pay attention to this world, and when we are in another world we pay attention to that world. If I must give a time when I had highest level of consciousness and alertness I should to say it was at the moment when I viewed my life.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning It was as if there was timeless. I had no sense about space and time. My all life was viewed for an instant.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Deeper in the life-viewing.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Sense of hearing was more alert.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes They seemed like two horizontal endless bounding walls. One was in upper and another was underlying.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Maybe I had a hallucination. Because I felt the reading lamp and the curtain were the same as me. They connected with me. I felt they were alive and saw the reading lamp urinate! Everything was alive.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes White light, very bright, beyond description.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm 浩瀚，辉煌的城堡，天堂的感觉，灿烂无比，仙境之感
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Terror (in the darkness), reality, wonderful.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? 没有 Conservative/fundamentalist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I was a materialism atheist. After that time, I was converted to a Christian. Now I believe that God is light and love. God is who God is. God is the ultimate power of the universe.
What is your religion now? 基督教
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I was a materialism atheist. After that time, I was converted to a Christian. Now I believe that God is light and love. God is who God is. God is the ultimate power of the universe.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Everything is included in light.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I was quite different in outlook. I became more generous, open-minded, and profound. It gave me positive effect in my relationship with other people.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes For example, my feeling, emotion, status and matters are difficult to describe clearly.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Dark tunnel was useful to me. Life-reviewing and the castle gave me very beautiful spirit experience that I had never imagined. My outlook on life and worth were changed indeed by them.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain All my NDEs are related to my sleeping at night or in daytime.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I think it's better to communicate face to face.