Experience Description

I can't remember the accident itself. I regained my consciousness when I was back in my apartment (that's what I thought). The only difference was that there were cases and cupboards with drugs and medicines everywhere. After some time, a woman appeared. I can't remember if we talked. At one point, a light door appeared in the wall and the woman asked me to come with her through it. We were to be back soon. I agreed because I trusted her. We went through the door. On the other side, she was no longer there. Everything looked like an underground factory (I cannot describe that place, but I guess a factory is what it felt like).

There were many people there. They were running naked in all directions. I just sat and observed them. The couldn't see me or they just didn't pay attention to my presence. Some time passed and I wanted to find the exit. I wasted a lot of time and didn't find anything. I was getting upset, angry, and lost consciousness. When I regained it, I was still In that factory, but there were no people this time, just the women that took me there. She said I would stay there (I think the communication was telepathic, we didn't talk in the usual way). I felt deceived. She had said we were going to come back. She asked me what I didn't like about the place. I didn't answer, but I felt she understood my situation. All the people that I would leave on earth came to my mind instantly. I was very sad, for the first time in my life, the feeling of sadness was so strong. I then felt sucked into this world and started to regain consciousness.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 09/1998

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes AccidentIllness Clinical death The accident resulted in hematoma of the brain. I was near death for a few days.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I felt as if my consciousness followed me wherever I looked and then went wherever it wanted.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was fully aware who I am, I paid attention to details.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Just like I described above, it was a new place, new space.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I came through a door made of light. It appeared in the middle of a wall in my apartment.

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes A woman who took care of me and other people.

The experience included: Void

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain A light door I described above.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm 'An underground factory' I described above.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? First curiosity, later - fear.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I was reminded of all the people I would not see any more if I stayed there.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I went through this light door and came back through the same door. When I could not find the exit, I felt I was trapped/limited by this alien space. It was not a physical boundary.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I'm not sure if it was my decision.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal ateista

What is your religion now? Liberal buddysta, praktykujący w linii buddyzmu tybetańskiego Karma Kagyu

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I started looking for explanations and came across Buddhist teachings about death. They were the only teachings that sound sensible and explain my experience. Later I started studying more Buddhism and decided this outlook fits me.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes All the feelings are difficult to describe.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Best part, the woman's care of me. Worst part was when I couldn't get out of there.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes People's reactions were not out of the way.