Experience Description

The first few times I died and went through the void/curtain/wall that divides mortals with heaven- I saw a light and an old friend. All I was told, was that it was not my time. It was as if I was in a room w/no lights, sounds or feelings and all of a sudden, a white light and a shadow appeared that told me that it was not my time. This happened several times, maybe 5 times.

The last time it happened I felt awake on the operating room table- I could hear the nurse and the doctor, the heart machine. I heard a female voice say we're losing him. Then I felt as if my soul had been grabbed and pulled upwards to the ceiling. I was floating, I tried to look back- but that is not allowed. The sounds of the OR slowly faded- as if someone was turning down the volume control, slowly. I felt scared, but had a strange feeling of comfort or being told to be calm. I went through a dark tunnel where the light slowly became brighter. Then a shadow appeared- an old friend told me that it was not my time and then things went black/gone/etc.

I somehow figured out that the shadow was a friend who died 5 years earlier. I am glad to see that he made it to heaven, he deserved it.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: after 05 sept 1991

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain AccidentSurgery-relatedAllergic reaction I was unconscious for most of it so I am unsure of the exact cause. But I suffered a ruptured aorta and many other injuries. I was given penicillin and had an allergic reaction. Also, I believe that the forces of evil were after my soul and attempting to Clinical death Major car wreck, many intensive injuries.What kind of response are you looking for ?

How do you consider the content of your experience? Disturbing

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I felt transparent, or from what I saw when I looked back I seemed that way- I only caught a glimpse from looking back- but, it could explain why my friend was a shadow. He stood in front of the light so that he could have some kind of form.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was in an Intensive care unit, fatal injuries- the docs came and looked at me after the surgeries, many could not believe that I lived. Sure- they were good docs, but it was not my time.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Altered space- I went to heaven.

Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Hearing from a deceased person is rather unusual.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes yes, some kind of tunnel/curtain/division or the earth and heavens.

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes They were in front of the light. Yes, it was a friend who died 5 yrs. earlier. He told me repeatedly that it was not my time.

The experience included: Void

The experience included: Darkness

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The light started small and grew brighter until I got close and then a shadow appeared. The light was bright- but more like a glow- not like looking at the sun.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Yes, "heaven". Very nice place from the outside, I bet is really great on the inside.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Scared, fear, calm, relaxed, questioning

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe yes, after the wreck. But I did question my purpose before the wreck, just not as extensively.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I have learned a lot after my NDE. I question many forms of religion.

The experience included: Vision of the future

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future yes, but that has been a gift for some time.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I was told repeatedly that it was not my time. Who decided, I don't know- For what reason, I don't know that either.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes it gave me a "god-complex".. Not only am I a prophet, I also believe that I am immortal.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain I have no problem talking about it- but I have to be careful of who I tell because I don't want to go to a loony bin.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Well, I believe that I have a more direct line to "god". I have asked questions that only she/he/it/they could have answered.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I do not know, yet.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Various reactions from; you should devote your life to god to you should feel lucky. Don't know how they were influenced. I don't tell many people-

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No Just my memory

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Can't think of anything.