I am an asthmatic and was having a really bad attack. I was an undergraduate at the time and went to the health center for treatment. From there, I was transferred to hospital. My breathing became increasingly labored. By the time I arrived at the hospital, I was turning blue. I was fighting for each breath. The next thing I know, I was no longer working so hard to breath anymore. I thought to myself, 'That's strange.' I tried to take a breath, but nothing happened. I was not afraid. In fact, I was very calm. I felt as light as air. I was floating above my body. I saw myself on the gurney and the medical staff working diligently to put a breathing tube down my throat. Again, I felt no fear. I was not quite sure what I was seeing. I heard them talking, machines going off, and the doctor barking orders. Then I was floating higher until I was surrounded by the whitest, brightest light I have ever seen. I remember thinking, 'Why does this light not hurt my eyes?' At the same time, I felt at peace. I found myself in this space. It was a huge white space. I felt love, comfort, peace, and joy that surrounded me. The feeling was in me, as if I could wrap myself in it and it was Beautiful. I walked forward to a curtain that was a beautiful flowing 'white lace' that was alive. I am not sure I can explain it, but it was like it was breathing. I am not sure how I understood that, but I did. I pushed the curtain aside and walked past it. I found myself in the presence of a male figure in a white gown made of the same material as the white lace curtain. He had a glow around him. He had such great love for me. I could feel it. This being, an angel perhaps, spoke to me saying, 'Don't worry Ginny the breath of life will be breathed back into you. Your time has not yet come.' I look at him and replied, 'But I do not want to go.' The next thing I knew I was moving so fast, back from where I came from. I slammed back into my body. I came into the breathing tube, into my mouth, down my throat into my trachea and then lungs. I could see this. I then heard myself breathing, but it was not a natural kind breathing. It was a mechanical, a unnatural kind of breathing. That was the last thing I remember. I woke up in the intensive care unit five days latter. I have never spoke of this until now. It sounds crazy I know. It took me a long time to understand it myself. Only now that I find myself in the middle of a career crisis, I find myself think about it what did that mean? Was it real? Yes, I think so.
Date NDE Occurred: fall 1095
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Illness. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)
Respiratory arrest during severe asthma attack.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I heard the nurses and the Doctor talking, I felt their anxiety. I heard the medical equipment making noises.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I was aware of things like great love and peace. It was not verbalized, but felt.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was alert through the whole thing. That is until I stopped breathing. After that, it was a different kind of consciousness.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I had no sense of time.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Not sure if I can express it in words.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The same.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A very bright light. A light that does not exist here on Earth.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I was in this space, a void of white light of love, incredible joy, and peace.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calm, peace
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others I had never felt so loved.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Slightly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic At the time I was questioning my faith in the church and in God.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I do not question the church as I did before.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic I have come to terms with the church. I attend on a regular basis and believe that God is always there.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I questioned my faith. Now I do not.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes My faith, my belief in mankind.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin A figure. A loving figure. He had great love for me. He spoke to me. I could clearly hear him speak to me.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes Before I was not sure if there was a God, or a Haven. I was afraid of death.
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Yes, there is life after death.
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes Yes, there is a God. He lives in me. I know with all my heart that I will someday go back there.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No God does have a plan for me. What that is I am not sure, but he does.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes yes God does have a plan for me. What that is I am not sure, but he does.
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Unknown
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Slightly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Yes love does exist. It is here on Earth and in Haven.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? I think now I am not so quick to judge others. I think now I am not so quick to judge others.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I have learned to trust others, accept, and return love.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I am not sure I can ever fully explain what I saw and felt.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Love, I am loved.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real I was not sure what it all meant. I was not even sure if it was real or the effects of the powerful respiratory drugs that were given to me.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real I know it was real. I have never spoken of it for fear of others thinking I was crazy. But I know now that it was real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? This is the first time I have ever spoken of it. This is a big step for me. The whole thing sounds crazy.
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