I had gone to a doctor at a nearby treatment center for a sinus infection that I had had for two weeks and that wouldn't go away. He prescribed an antibiotic. I told him that I usually didn't take antibiotics because they upset my digestion, but he said that that particular one wouldn't. So I took it.
After taking it for four days, I became ill one night in the middle of the night. I woke up with a fever and terrible stomach pains. At one point, I got up to go to the bathroom and passed some blood. I also had a terrible headache.
I woke my husband and said I was going to lie down on the couch in the living room to try to go back to sleep. He came into the living room with me and laid down on the other couch, to be near me. I was shaking pretty badly and in a lot of pain, but I tried to fall back asleep.
As soon as I closed my eyes, I left my body. I didn't know where I was, but I wasn't sick. There was a bright white mist all around me. I felt very calm. I remember thinking, 'Well, this is interesting. Where is this?' Then, out of the mist stepped the pastor of the church we had been attending. I was so glad to see him! But he didn't seem glad to see me at all. He looked very worried and scared and kept waving his arms around as if he was trying to tell me something. Although his mouth was moving, I was having trouble understanding what he was saying. I felt a little disappointed that he didn't want me to visit. And I said something like, 'I'm just so happy to see you! I've missed you sooo much since you passed away.' And he nodded his head furiously at me and I said something like, 'Uh, oh. You're dead and I'm here. I must be sicker than I thought!' And he nodded at me again. Right at that point I literally slammed back into my body so hard I fell off the couch. I was so weak at that point that I couldn't stand up and had to crawl over to the other couch and grab my husband's ankle and whisper, 'Hospital.'
My temperature was 104 when I got to the hospital and it turned out that I had pseudo-membranous colitis with hemorrhaging and clostridia. The antibiotic I had taken had wiped out all the 'good' bacteria in my bowel and cause an overgrowth of clostridia. My intestines were becoming gangrenous. I was very sick for a long time and in a lot of pain and very weak. But my own doc pulled me through.
Date NDE Occurred: Approx. 1990
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Illness Acute reaction to antibiotic medication. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening I would say 'uncertain' because, at the time, I had no idea how sick I actually was.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I felt most alert in the white mist.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Clarity was greater than usual.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I couldn't hear what my pastor was saying even though he was apparently talking to me. My usual hearing is excellent.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My pastor and friend walked into the mist to see me. I knew him - he had been a dear friend. He communicated to me that I was more sick than I realized and had to get help.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Wonder, at first - in that misty place. Then gladness to see my pastor and friend. Then panic when I realized the possible condition of my physical body.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I was very touched that my friend went to that trouble to let me know I was seriously ill and needed help right away.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told my husband right away. I told my kids about it later on. They found it interesting.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had read Raymond Moody's book. I don't think it affected my experience. There were no tunnels or anything like he described from what I remember. I think my experience was just what it was. But I'm glad I had read about NDEs because I realized that that was probably what my experience had been.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It is as real to me shortly after and even now as it was to me when it happened.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I don't understand this question.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No.