Experience Description

Assumed severe drop in blood pressure. No medical called. Follow up with PCP next day.

I express this to others as having no body and being nowhere. 'Where' is what we humans use as a reference point. I remember my first thought being, 'No wonder humans are so depressed all of the time, bodies are so Heavy.' I had no eyes but could see. Yet, there was nothing to see. It was not dark, nor light. It just was. I felt as though I could stay there forever and need nothing. I felt that I could just be, and need nothing else. There was such calm and peacefulness that I wanted to stay.

But I began to hear the concern of others trying to 'save' me. I wanted to tell them that I was fine. Not to worry. But when they were going to call an ambulance, I felt compassion for them. I had no way to tell them that I wanted to stay a little while longer and then I would come back. I felt complete joy and contentment. Yet, my compassion for the others caused me to come back. I was sad to come back but felt I had to console them and let them know I was okay.

I sometimes try to visit that place when I meditate, but can never quite get back there completely. I miss it so. I really do. The strange thing is that I didn't experience being out of my body, or looking down on myself. I was just away, somewhere else in complete bliss.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1996

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes assumed severe drop in blood pressure. no medical called. Follow up with PCP next day. 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' An assumed sudden drop in blood pressure. They said 'the lights were on but nobody was home', and then I just dropped back straight as a board, but they caught me before I hit the ground and laid me down.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I first noticed that I had no body. Ah, the bliss. Then I noticed there was nothing there and I felt like I was a dot of being. A dot. Nothing, but everything.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning See previous explanation.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Sharp.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Once I began to hear, and become aware, of the others outside of my 'space.' They sounded far away but I could hear them.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I went somewhere but don't know where.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Only the light of re-entering the physical world. It was too bright. It hurt my eyes.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Please see what I've already explained.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Bliss, amazement, and compassion for those worried about me.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I know that I don't know.

What is your religion now? Liberal

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I know that I don't know.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes There is no reason to fear death. There is no reason to fear. Of course, I knew from a previous vision ten years earlier that I would return to the great light, that great energy of love/compassion, the great everything. But at the time for some reason that didn't cross my mind. I don't know why.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I just know everything is okay, even when it isn't. It's okay. This isn't all there is and someday I'll get to go there again. To visit or to stay. I don't know which at this time but I look forward to it.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I wish I could really remember, or experience, how it feels not to have a body sometimes. I haven't tried to astral project because I have had dissociative experiences in the past and it's not the same. I really miss that feeling. The longer it gets the harder it is to really remember that blissful, blissful feeling.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes It took a while to share. Some believe me, and some don't.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had read and heard about out of body experiences, but mine wasn't like those.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It happened. What else is there to say. I don't have words to really explain it to others, but I understand their doubt. Some express blissful longing to experience it themselves. But I can't make it happened again, so I have no way to teach them how to go there. I'm not sure I should.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Please see comments above.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No