During my surgery, I awakened and was floating. I could see myself near the ceiling of the surgery room.
I was pleased with my appearance and youth. I entered a tunnel near the side of the surgery room ceiling very cautiously, but kept one foot at the outside of the opening. I only wanted to look in. I looked up and saw a light at the end, which was very soft and moved back and forth. Some electrical currents ran through it and it was somewhat milky in appearance. It was as if some forms of life were in the currents. Something was communicating with me. It asked me if I was ready to come all the way in. I said no. I wanted to go back and raise my two sons until they did not need me anymore. I wanted to become a better person. I made a promise to be a good mother. The light assured me that I was loved and I was sent back into my body to fulfill my purpose. When I awoke after the surgery, this experience was immediately with me.
I spent months searching for answers as to what happened during my surgery and what was this vision. (Discussed with professors, wrote to Dr. Raymond Moody, and talked to others who shared my experience).
Date NDE Occurred: August 1976
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
Ruptured tumor. Heart stopped.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal After I left my body.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? After I left my body.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could see every detail of the energy in the light. I could see myself clearly.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything was so calm and quiet around me.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes See main narrative.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes See main narrative.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calm, peaceful and loved. Realization of what is important.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes More spiritual. I no longer belong any one religion.
What is your religion now? Moderate Spiritual
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes More spiritual. I no longer belong any one religion.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I felt I could now understand people better. I was no longer afraid of death.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes As I feel I am accountable to a higher force.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes No one believed me. Life changing experience. Hard to describe the light/energy in tunnel.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I feel connected to another dimension. I seem to be able to 'read' people. I can sense negativity. I actually get ill when around difficult people. Hard to explain without sounding New Age as I have dreamed of other universes and feel like I have been there before.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I knew there was life after death when I was embraced by that love in the light.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Shared with my surgeon shortly after surgery and he told me it was the effects of the drugs during surgery. My husband, a physician, thought I was nuts to tell anyone.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real Real or more real than other experiences in my life. I can still recall everything in detail, but cannot remember details of so many other important experiences of my life (childbirth, car accident, etc.).
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real Same as above.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No