I arrived in the intensive care unit not in any further respiratory distress and all of the sudden I felt my body sinking and becoming very heavy. I didn't feel the need to breathe anymore and I could feel my heart rate begin to slow significantly. I could also feel that my oxygen level was low but I still did not feel the need to breath like most people would.
There was a calmness about me that I cannot express in words. There are no adjectives to describe this type of calm feeling. I began to see several doors made of a straw type material. These doors were circling in front of me as if they were on a Merry-Go-Round. These doors were all attached to each other to form a constant chain of straw doors. As I kept seeing these doors, the calmness I felt was extraordinary. For some reason I knew if I choose to go through one of these doors I would die and continue to experience a peaceful calm unbelievable feeling. I don't know who was telling me this but I knew it was either a relative that had passed or some spiritual message. (I'm not a very religious person.)
Anyway, the next thing I know, the respiratory alarm as well as the low oxygen alarm was going off and the nurse was putting the oxygen back on me. So that was it. What a gift this experience was because now I am not afraid to die.
Date NDE Occurred: 3/10/05
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Life threatening event, but not clinical death Pulmonary embolism.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes No
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I'm not sure how to answer that question.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? EXTREME peace and calmness.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes See my story.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I realized that we are here on earth for one thing. To perpetuate human kindness so that we can continue to exist on earth. This is our soul purpose. We continue to be born so that there is a continual supply of human kindness to combat the dangers of our world.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes A few weeks and just to a few selected people. Some positive, some negative.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No