I had been in a dark depression for about a year and was preparing to commit suicide. I was tired of running away from my childhood and the damage that literally tore my soul apart. It is difficult to live on such a negative planet and I am a sensitive spirit.To make a long story short, I had made my final decision to leave and I was at peace with my decision. From my perspective, at this life changing time, I was saving my children from myself. My anger was eating me alive and my children had to live in my hell as well. The moment before I lost consciousness, I said/thought, to myself, ‘I am doing this to keep them safe.’ I left my body spontaneously. I went. I FLEW! Upon leaving my body, I shot through the Universe. I did not see a tunnel. I saw stars and galaxies while flying at what felt like the speed of light as I went towards the light. I did this each time this happened: four in total. When I reached the light, Time changed. I could not tell from the moment of leaving how long each of these experiences lasted, because there was no time. People refer to this as Heaven but when I arrived, I knew instantly that I was Home! It isn't a place; it's a vibration of Unconditional Love. There is NO Earthly terms to describe the Ecstasy felt upon arriving. It's all Love! A spirit, who was cloaked in a burlap tunic with a large hood covering his face, met me. He was an ethereal form. We communicated by thought and feeling; there were no words. He led me to a healing room where other spirits were dressed the same way. As I lay down to be worked on, my soul was being infused with Love. Part of me went to a River that I ‘knew’ was the River of Life. It was beyond magical. I have always wanted to write a book called ‘The Color of Music’ because that is what this river was. Flowing Music that was every color on Earth and a lot more colors we can't see here, because of Earth’s density. I was hearing the Music of the Spheres during this whole time. It sings Love. It's Angelic and beyond description. I was One with Everything and it was One with Me. Remembrance was flowing through my spirit body as my soul revival continued. I stepped into the River and became the Colors and the Music. I was filled with such Joy and Love, which had this happened on Earth, my physical body would not have been able to stand the electrical charge. The energy revival was overwhelming. That is why there is no time. So much is happening at once that I could only feel the experience. As I started to leave I was given messages that were ringing loudly in music form, Singing from the Universe is the only way I can describe it. It was like, ‘Love is The Answer’ and ‘We are All Great and Powerful Souls who showed Great Courage in coming to Earth to help. Remember!’ The Knowledge I remembered has been difficult to keep to myself. This was 17 years ago. My loving family deemed me a crazy person to ensure that I would never be believed about my childhood memories. The ‘New Age’ movement was at an early stage and I rarely encountered another person who had had a similar experience. Believe me, I searched and have searched since. This year I finally found my affirmation in a book called ‘The Afterlife of Billy Fingers’.
Date NDE Occurred: 1995
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Planning suicide. Life threatening event, but not clinical death
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I was One with Everything. LOVE was everywhere.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? At All times: Communication by thought
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
There is NO time here.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I wear glasses, my vision on earth is very poor there was no need for glasses in this vibration.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard the Music of the Spheres, Angels singing: I was one with everything I heard.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
The experience included: Tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I shot out of my body through celestial stars towards incredible light.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I was in a healing room and at the same time by The River of Life.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Ecstasy, Joy, Love, Remembrance of my true Home, Peace
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I remembered everything I knew before I came to Earth, with the exception of past lives.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths Spiritual but not religious
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes More Profound
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Other or several faiths Spiritual but not religious
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I had given up on my life, felt I had No purpose Remembering my true Home & the Love awaiting me
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am looking forward to leaving the Earth Plane and going home! I could change my life every day.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I was met by a spirit who was cloaked and later others who were cloaked as well.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes My returning memory of my TRUE Home
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes It is a feeling not describable in Earth terms
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I KNEW that I was ONE with Our Source
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain Not Special Knowledge: just remembering my/our greatness
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are not meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes LOVE is The Answer
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I saw, felt & remembered it. I was given messages for others... LOVE is the Only Answer We are great & powerful, courageous beings
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I do not fear death
Do you fear death after your experience? I greatly feared death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes Our lives here are a choice...Free Will Reigns
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes LOVE is the answer
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes LOVE is the Answer
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Large changes in my life. All of my senses are very acute. I am able to read other’s emotions and lives.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I broke a chain of abuse. My children and grandchildren are thriving.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes There are no ‘earthly’ words to describe the beauty, joy, colors, vibrancy or the connectedness.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Clairaudience, Empathic, Knowing
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Unconditional Love, The Music of the Spheres, Our Connectedness
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes At first I did not: people would have thought I was crazy. Now I do especially when someone is concerned about a deceased relative or grieving or if I see articles on Face Book questioning the Afterlife.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I went to the Healing room three more times after this experience. I had NO Doubt, too much had happened and my energy after the healing room was blowing out electrical sockets.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I know too much. It’s hard to live on this plane of negativity.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes I have visited the Akashic Records.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Believe!
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