I stole my dad's car and drag raced a friend on a back road. I lost control and went into the ditch. Everything went black and then I could see myself slumped over the floor console in the car from inside the roof of the car. All I could think of is who is that? Things went black again and then I could feel and see I was floating through a field and all I could think of is I had to see my sister and say goodbye. Things went black again and then I saw the tunnel and the light. It was a warm feeling, hard to describe. I heard many voices of men, but the loudest was a woman saying 'It's not your time, go back.' I felt disappointment by that. Then things went black again and that's when I came to in the car.
Date NDE Occurred: 1981
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal When I had to say goodbye to my sister.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I had to say goodbye to my sister.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain Never saw anybody, just heard them.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Happy, free. Wanting to go home.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist none
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain I wasn't religious before this and I still am not. I believe there is something out there and I want to go back.
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist none
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I wasn't religious before this and I still am not. I believe there is something out there and I want to go back.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Twenty years later I told my father.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No At the time of the accident I was fifteen, I have never even heard of anything like this.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Because I could still think and have thoughts. That's why I thought it was real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I can still see everything like it happened yesterday.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? If I wasn't allowed to cross then, what is my purpose to stay? I still haven't found out.