Hello everyone as promised here is my interesting spiritual or out of body experience. In many ways, it has a lot of things in common with most NDEs. But what separates it from all NDEs is when it happened.
It didn't happen in the last few years or not even happened while I was a young child or infant. It happened sometime either while I was in the womb or at the very most it was the very first memory or experience I ever had before my soul entered my body.
As of now, I really don't know for sure what caused my experience. It could have been an actual NDE during my rocky development process, it could have been a dream or some sort of imaginative experience or at the very most, it could have very well been the memory of my soul being created.
Before I give you all the exact details of my experience, I want for us to go backwards in a sense. I want to first give you the background details about my birth and the immediate details surrounding my birth. Second, I want to give the details about the memories I had while I was in my mother's womb. And finally the details of the experience itself.
Now when I was born, I was supposed to have been born in early June. Instead, I was born in late March. At the time of my birth my mother had got very sick and the doctors told her in order to save my life as well as hers I would had to be delivered via cesarean section.
So I ended up being cut out of my mother's womb. In fact, I remember clearly looking up at the doctors with their masks on and watching them reach for me and carry me out. After that I remember it being somewhat painful and traumatic I don't know for sure if they held me upside down to get me to cry or not but I do remember the burning pain either when they were cutting the umbilical cord or when they were performing circumcision.
I remember staying a long time at the hospital since I was so small the doctors were scared about my lungs, heart, and eyesight. From what I was later told by my parents I had a underdeveloped heart and lungs and I was first given medicine to further the development and if that didn't work (especially for my heart) the doctors would have to perform open heart surgery.
I was placed in an incubator with breathing tubes and other wires around me. I remember fidgeting with them since they felt strange to me. I also remember being in a room with other incubators and I would look at them quite often. Another bad experience, I remember having was when the doctors were doing a test on my eyes.
I remember being taken into a dark room and having them place some sort of clips on my eyes to keep them open and I remember seeing some sort of chart being lit up. The thing I remember most of all from that experience was the fear and the pain I felt, because even though I kept hearing kind voices (I guess telling me it would be okay) just the fact I had these strange clip things over my eyes was a very uncomfortable and strange experience. As far as I know from discussing this with my parents, these memories do indeed check out so it gives me pretty much certain proof that I was indeed able to remember these things.
Now going further backwards, I also was fortunate enough, gifted enough, or as I feel lucky enough to be able to remember specific things about what it was like being in my mother's womb. As far as I know, these things check out as well. First, I remember sleeping quite a lot.
But when I was awake I would always try to take in what I was seeing, hearing, feeling, and tasting. I remember it being dark as in seeing black most of the time while in the womb, other times I remember seeing dark red. Other times like when my mother was outside or in a well lit room, I would see orange and yellow colors.
I remember seeing what looked like red veins coming from my the amniotic sac I was in. Also, because my mother worked as a waitress even while pregnant with me, I remember many times being disturbingly awaken by loud groups of people talking. It sounded a lot like the gibberish noise that you first encounter when you walk into a crowded room.
I also remember when I would get rudely woke up from sleeping after hearing loud noises such as those from hearing people talk around me I not only remember kicking but kicking over and over just constantly until I felt better. Another big thing I remember was tasting various things. I mostly remember tasting chocolate somehow. I later found out that my mother while pregnant with me loved to eat chocolate cake doughnuts.
Now for the experience itself. This is very difficult to remember all the details since as far as I know this was one of if not the very first memory I have of anything. From the best of what I can remember, I was almost like in a disembodied state surrounded by a being of bright golden light.
I remember this being had massive hands and he cradled and caressed me in his hands. I remember him having a voice that was deep, strong and powerful but yet gentle and loving at the same time. I don't know for sure what he said to me since I couldn't understand language at the time but I could think in concepts or feelings such as I could easily tell if someone was talking in a loving way, sad way or angry way.
I remember being in a the most wonderful state of peace and love that even to this day I have never felt anything close to. I remember seeing either the spirits or the spirit bodies of other babies that were about to be fitted with their earthly body. They were like swirling around this powerful being who was holding me and even looked like they could have been coming forth every time he spoke.
At one point, I remember this being taking me from the cradled position and placing me on his shoulder as if he was trying to show me something. Then he took me into his hands for a final time and then I found myself going backwards down a dark tunnel while still seeing a hint of light from where I once was and then almost like with a thud I found myself in my body.
I remember feeling immediately, once I found myself in my body, that I just had a wonderful and powerful experience and that I needed to remember it. I didn't think in those exact words or even in words but I thought through concepts or even feelings.
Now I certainly understand if whomever is reading this is very skeptical of my experience. I am too as well. As far as I can tell from what I've learned about as far as the paranormal, brain science and biology here are some things it could have been.
1. While in the womb during development I had a NDE.
2. While in the womb during development I had a very powerful dream.
3. A complete or half-true fabrication (I wonder the same thing about other people's NDEs and other spiritual experiences).
4. The option I hope is true - a real experience taking place outside the natural world and outside my physical body. Which could have been the process where my soul was created by God, where I got to mingle and get to briefly know God, and where my soul was then put together with my body.
Date NDE Occurred: Between Oct. 1983 and late March 1984
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Fetal development process Other My experience at the very most could very well be a pre conception experience or ensoulment experience.
I'm somewhat uncertain, if the event was a NDE than I was facing a life threatening event while in the womb.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? All throughout since it began until I was connected with my body.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I guess I did, at the time it felt very normal. But under the circumstances I was under I guess it would to anyone else.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Hard to tell since that was one of my very first profound memories in my life.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Same as question #8.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was like the typical dark tunnel with a hint of light at the end but in my case I was going backwards into my body instead of forwards.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I think I saw other spirits or spirit bodies of other infants about ready to be placed into bodies by God.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was very bright swirling golden light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm As far as I know (and hope) I was in the the presence of God. I didn't experience another level so to speak, I was with God, and then later I was back in my body with a dark tunnel in between.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, peace and curiosity.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control All I know is what I remember from the experience, since as far as I know those were the very first things I learned about.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain I don't know considering how early in my life that it was along with the various doubts I have about the experience I don't know if I did obtain special knowledge or not.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I do know I am blessed with a very good memory of past events (could even be a powerful photographic memory) but other than that it is hard to say.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The love, the sights, the sound of the being talking to me and the fact that when I felt myself go into the womb I thought (in concepts or emotions) 'I need to remember this experience, this is so powerful and wonderful'.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I've shared it with various friends and family members. Just like I expected, and much like how I would be if someone else told me this happened to them, they were very skeptical, as they should be.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real I describe what my experience could be (along with what I hope it was) in the primary text of my experience.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real Well I still have tons of unanswered questions about these kinds of experiences along with what our brains are indeed capable of (i.e. whether or not our brains can indeed induce these experience or trick us into having them).
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Nothing other than I hope to talk with atheists/naturalists to either find out what caused this experience, other people who believe in the existence of the soul (like non-materialist brain scientists) and with people who have had NDEs or OBEs themselves.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Nope that will be it. Thank you all for your time. Take care and God bless.