I floated up to the ceiling and could see my body lying on the table. The doctors were alarmed and saying that they were losing me. I was not scared, I was with a couple of very kind people that I believed at the time were angels. They told me not to worry they would take care of me.
I heard a whooshing sound and was being propelled up through a dark tunnel towards a light. As I looked around there were other people who I believed were angels who surrounded me in the tunnel, they were singing. I wasn't worried I felt very calm and happy.
When I reached the end of the tunnel, I was bathed in a bright warm light that felt very serene. I felt safe and happy. A woman held out her hand to me, she was lovely and I felt that she loved me and knew who I was. I felt safe in her company. I didn't know who she was. She held my hand while I heard a conversation between the angels who accompanied me and the voice that came from the light. The voice said that it was not my time. The voice said I had not had my children yet so I had to go back. I didn't want to go back! I wanted to stay where I felt loved and safe from harm. The beautiful lady said not to worry someday I would be back and she would see me then.
I found myself back in my body. I woke up from the surgery and didn't tell anyone for many years what had happened. One day a few years after the surgery, my mother showed me a picture of my paternal grandmother, who had died giving birth to my father. It was the lovely woman who held my hand at the other side of the tunnel. I had never seen a picture of her before.
Date NDE Occurred: October 1969
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) My heart stopped from anesthesia during surgery.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal My mind was clearer because I didn't feel endangered, my thoughts weren't clouded by fear.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Heading through the tunnel and while listening to the voices discuss me.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time didn't seem to be relevant.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Everything was brighter, clearer, colors were more vivid.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Well the end of that tunnel was the most peaceful place, it was beyond my imaginings, pure, serene and loving.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt loved, accepted, happy, secure and sad when I was told I had to go back to my body.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control All I saw was that I was terribly unhappy child that was just trying to get through life and tried really hard to be good so that I would be loved.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I became aware that I would live to have children.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I knew from that moment on that there is life after the body dies. I knew that others do not judge us when we die. I felt unconditional love. That's a big step for a little girl who didn't know what love was.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I am not afraid to love with all my heart. This is a big deal for me, because I was severely abused in all ways possible as a child.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain At the time of the event, I was afraid to tell anyone what had happened because I thought they would think I was crazy. I was an abused child who had post-traumatic stress disorder so not telling was easier than telling.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Well I had an intuition about people and things. One of my teachers was doing a thesis on ESP and used his classes as test subjects. I showed the highest level of ESP out of all of his two hundred and forty students tested.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, I will never forget the feeling of being totally loved and secure, the kindness of those who surrounded me.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I didn't tell anyone for about ten years. I told my husband and he believed me totally. Later I shared with others and yes, some of them said I was a 'nutcase'. My husband has always accepted that I have some different connections than most people.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real. I had never heard of anyone experiencing something like that and I was scared to tell anyone for fear they would label me as insane. So I kept it to myself.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I totally accept that this was a real experience and that I was chosen to know that there is another place that is so incredibly loving, accepting, joyful and perfect that awaits us all after our time on earth or in this dimension is done.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Concerning the last question. Before the experience, I had many out of body experiences in which I was surrounded by beings I assumed were angels during the course of beatings and rapes that I experienced as a child. I would float up to the ceiling and the angels would comfort me, distracting me from what was happening to my body. So this is why I hesitated to tell anyone about my near death experience. I had shameful secrets that I was forced to keep under threat of death of those that I loved. So if this maybe makes my experience questionable to anyone I would understand that entirely. After that year my father was not around anymore to hurt me. So far in my life I haven't had another NDE.