In a nutshell, I overdosed on a drug I thought was THC, but was actually PCP cut with rat poison. I was at a party I threw for my friends because I intended to leave town and try to heal myself from what I found out later to be clinical depression.
I asked God for help after I realized my soul separated from my body and a light being came to me to help me. This being knew everything about me and offered to help me remember who I am.
This being helped me to remember how to travel in the spirit world. We went to Egypt where I was shown the past and present existing as one. I was explained the function of the pyramids and an event from a certain past life of mine which related to my mission now. Much of what I was shown; I do not understand and remember.
After Egypt, we went around the planet and came to the United States. Along the way, I saw special places on the planet that were integral to the planet's energies. I understood how the thoughts and deeds of humans affected the energies of the planet. I was shown spirit who were lost, and spirit who were trying to help them to the light. I was shown auras of humans, and our planet itself and was explained their purpose. We went to the moon and I was explained its purpose. I saw the earth's aura from the moon. I was told our planet was actually named "Gaia". I went to a place I believe was Gaia in the beginning.
We then went to a star that I picked, and I wanted to enter it, but was advised against it because the being I was with wanted me to be fully ready before I entered. On the way to the star, we passed all of the planets in our solar system. I saw spirit life on each planet and was told each one was where different aspects of spirit evolution occur.
I met with a really awesome light being who I understood to be Jesus. He took me into him and all I remember him saying was: Tell them to love one another.
After I was with that one being, I saw all of the planets in full color and sound, all lined up. I could hear their energies, feel and see their auras.
After that, my escort being took me to a place in the shadow of Gaia. This a great spirit city which was a service center of sorts for souls. I saw souls of what were humans and animals going to and from Gaia. I was taken to a building where I met spirit who knew me, asked how I was doing on Gaia, and gave me loving advice I do not remember. I was then taken to a large building, which was huge and special. I recognized the building.
I was asked to wait on a bench while my escort went through a set of double doors. I remembered the bench and the double doors from before too. After a bit, my escort came out and told me I had to go inside. He cautioned me to be truthful with the group of beings inside and not to worry. I went inside and saw a group of beings I recognized. These beings showed me my life from the time I picked my parents until the time I died. They asked me if I had affected more souls positively or more negatively. I told them negatively, but I did think about lying to them because I knew my future depended on my answer. I wanted to stay in the place I was because of the love I felt there. It felt right, like I was home.
Of course, the beings knew my thoughts. I was told I could stay if I wanted, but my commitment would still need to be fulfilled, no matter what I chose to do. They reminded me that if I stayed, my growing would occur slower and I might want to go back to Gaia so I could finish sooner. I tried to argue my point, but it was no use. I was told to leave the room.
My escort being met me outside the room and asked me what happened. I told him, and he advised I should make a careful decision. He took me to a garden place and left me alone to think. I asked him to come back so I could ask questions. I asked him how my life would be if I went back, and he showed me several things I would do. He explained the importance of the children I was needed to bring to Gaia and singled out one of them as integral to the future of Gaia.
After all I was shown, I decided my thoughts were selfish and not in the best interest of the universe itself, and agreed I should return to Gaia. My escort being took me to a river, touched me on what would be my lips, and said if I jumped into the river, I would find my way back to my body. I jumped in and came back here.
There is much more to this story, this is why I am writing a book about it. I highly recommend reading the profile of my experience at the near-death.com website, because it does tell the story better.
Date NDE Occurred: June 1978
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Accidental drug overdose, PCP cut with rat poison. (snorted like cocaine) Clinical death I had a drug overdose which was certainly life-threatening.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I saw my body in a chair and could not enter it.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was alert the whole time.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning In Egypt, I saw past and present as one.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I heard the energies of the planets, and I heard the song my body creates, it was like a beautiful song that faded away. I heard my organs singing, and then fading away.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I might have been in a tunnel right after I passed out.
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw many spirit beings on Gaia and in what I believe to be heaven. Some beings I knew, some I did not. I did not see any I knew from my current life.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I think the light I saw was the star we went to.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I saw a spirit city and the other planets in our solar system. I saw past and present as one.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt extreme love, which I cannot describe.
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I understood everything I was shown, when I was shown it. It is my understanding we are here to enjoy this planet and learn to grow to be love.
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I saw my childhood and felt the emotions my actions created in others. I learned that many of the things I thought I did "wrong" were not necessarily wrong. I also learned of opportunities to love others, which I passed up. I learned that no matter what has been done to me, there is more to the story that my ego might not see or understand. My life review has assisted because I take into account more the feelings of others when I act.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I was shown many things which would occur in my personal life. I knew I would have hardships in my marriage and in my career. Much of I was shown has come true, so far.
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I went to a star I could not go into.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I made the decision. It was the most difficult decision I have ever made. It was difficult until I learned the value of being of service to others. It was tough to swallow my ego and make a decision to help others.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate I was a confirmed, but excommunicated Lutheran who believed in god, but was skeptical of the intent of the religion itself.
I felt the church I attended was money oriented and filled with negativity.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am somewhat more tolerant of other people's beliefs, but I had to develop that over time. The experience did not really provide a magic fix for things, although it has pointed me to tools I can use to learn things myself.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No I can relate this experience easily.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain My intuition is good. I could probably be a good psychic if I thought it was my purpose in life and chose to develop the potential I know I have. I do feel, though, that abilities like that are within everyone.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best part was seeing and feeling the energies of the being I feel to be Jesus. Next best was seeing and feeling Gaia and the other planets.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Initially, the reaction of others was disbelief and raised eyebrows. It was not until I started to share what happened with people in the AOL chat rooms that I received positive reactions and the encouragement to share what happened.
Since I wrote the profile that is posted on Kevin William's site, I have received over 500 letters, which contain 98% positive comments and gratitude for sharing my story. Many people have become a bit more loving and kind after reading my story.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? There is more to this experience than meets the eye. It would be best to contact me directly, so I can explain.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? There are so many questions, with an experience like mine, it might be better to talk with me about it. All in all, though, I found the questionnaire to be very thorough.