I was having a front and posterior spinal fusion with instrumentation. When it happened I immediately knew I was dead. I went up through the wall to the outside and watched a helicopter land. They unloaded a baby and took it inside at that moment. I panicked and thought of my children and I was overwhelmed with grief and was sobbing and repeating, 'who's going to take care of my kids?' This went on briefly and I heard a voice. I didn't see who it was but he said, 'Fear not for I will watch over them.' At that instant he spoke, I was overcome with the greatest feeling I have ever felt. It was warm and great and sucked all fear out of me. Then I didn't care and wanted to go on up through a light that appeared. I was on my way and could not wait I was almost to the end and I saw glowing people that I knew were my grandma and dad who were dead for years.
Then zap, just like that, I woke up in recovery very paranoid. I asked to see my wife and told her that something went wrong during surgery that I had seen the helicopter and had died. She asked the doctor and he said everything went fine and he is okay. All during my stay at the hospital and when I went home, I thought I was going crazy. I knew something happened however, believing my doctor, I couldn't understand what.
Anyhow, I went for my six month checkup at the doctor's office. He took x-rays to see if the fusion was taking. As we looked at the x-rays, I noticed a small piece of metal that looked like a staple that was too high and away from the other screws, so I asked what that is up there on the x-ray. My doctor then told me that we had some trouble during your surgery, your aorta was snipped, and we had almost lost you. We had to put you on the heart machine and we couldn't get your heart started for a long time. After several around ten shocks, maybe, it finally started.
I was furious I said I had my wife ask you about this, you are Jewish, and you lied to her and me. He said we got you back and I didn't want to upset her or you. I said you lied I can't trust you. Do you know I needed to know because I had things happen while I was dead and you had me thinking I was going crazy. I told him to never lie to someone. They need to know it's their life not yours. I am in total belief; he was in denial mode for fear of lawsuit. My wife worked for another doctor and we tried to get the notes. They were misplaced and lost. However, I now have had three heart attacks since then and carry a marker on my aorta to mark where it is sewed together.
I now have dreams that happen usually in a short time. If you want to speak to me don't wait because I won't be here long. I have seen my future death with my son and can't wait to go because it feels so great. I am no longer afraid to die. There is life beyond. There is an explosion that is going to happen soon. The earth I believe is going to be struck by something that looks like fires coming from the sky and at least my son and I are together. I wish the rest of my children would be with us because when it happens I calm him. Please, please, please pray and believe in him.
Date NDE Occurred: 1994
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) . They accidentally cut my aorta in half and I was placed on a heart lung machine.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal This life here is not the end. It is like it happened yesterday. I have just started to hear a voice, just twice, first it said a name 'Henry Hiser' who I don't know then a day later last week it said it is time!!!!! So I believe it is now fast approaching, within four weeks.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When he spoke to me.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning You could just tell.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? It was dark everywhere except for a great light from above leading you to it.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Can't describe.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Tunnel of light but not a tunnel.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Jesus, or so I think he was, for the effect of his voice saying fear not for I will watch over them. I did not see him though. I saw what I thought were grandma and dad who are living beyond.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Bright warm light with love.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I DIDNT MAKE IT TO THE END OF THE LIGHT
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Anguish, deep sorrow, then pure love.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I just knew to love everyone when I got back and not to be mean at all, hold no grudge, love your enemy.
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future Not there, but here I now have dreams that happen just important things.
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain Don't understand.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate I DID BELIEVE IN GOD BUT DIDNT PRACTICE
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I pray constantly.
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist HIHGLY RELIGOUS
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I pray constantly.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes After he (Jesus) spoke to me.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I stopped messing around on my wife.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The feeling of real love when he, Jesus I think, spoke to me was warm and filled me with love.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have dreams that happen now and just recently voices twice.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Immediately.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No