I remember going to bed, the night before the accident, and waking in the hospital after experiencing a most remarkable dream. I dreamt that I was flying alongside of a helicopter facing downward, and could see that we were coming down for a landing at a hospital landing site.
Then, a sense of void and darkness surrounded me, and I could sense a presence watching me and causing me to experience what would follow. I tried to move my arms and touch my face, but I had no arms or hands to do so. I tried repeatedly, attempting to use any part of my body, but I seemed to no longer have a body. I became enraged and soon afterward, I could feel other beings in my same state, and they were angry too. I could feel them searching for a place to go, and that they were envious of anyone with a body. I thought to myself that this is hell, and I said to whoever it was that was watching me that I didn't want to be like that.
Suddenly, I could feel that I was curled up in a fetal position and I could see a tunnel with a light at the end. I somehow knew I was in a woman's vagina, about to be born. I also somehow was told by the one watching me that I will forget everything and learn it all over again, and that there was no guaranty that I will be ok. I thought to myself, this is what it must be like for angels who don't have any experience. They're like children and could easily be fooled, or hurt. I refused, and suddenly another being took my place in the womb. Then I saw children laughing and playing, and teenagers talking with each other, and young people going through experiences and learning from them. I saw them becoming old and calming down from their worries and finding peace, which made them happy. I said, 'This is what I want; a life in a human body with the ability to taste, touch and feel, smell, and see, and especially the knowledge between good and bad. I want to live and to have an advantage over the other two states of being.'
Then I awoke in the hospital. I was trying to figure out if I was dreaming or awake. I became afraid because of what I had just experienced and I thought that I maybe was being tested in another way. It all seemed like a dream from January 14, 2000 to February 19, 2000 when I started retaining my memory. I realized that I was actually awake and that being in the hospital related a lot more to what I feel I learned from this experience and how I view life now, but I'm trying to be as brief as I can.
Date NDE Occurred: 1/14/00-4/24/00
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Life threatening event, but not clinical death heart rate was at 1 beat every 2min.minutes after accident. I suffered a traumatic head injury and was unresponsive, and other injuries to legs, diaphram, and pelvis.
Auto accident, which definitely would have been fatal if not acted on quickly.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? What I remembered was what I described above. But I don't remember the accident, or my family and friends who came to see me prior to my awakening. Even though they say I spoke to them, but incomprehensively.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain Could have, but decided not to.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes It was everywhere. It was also inside my thoughts, like a voice that was, just, there. A consciousness.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Anger, sadness, confusion, anxiety, astonishment, helplessness, and the feeling of being trapped. Then, happiness, uplifted, wonder, and the realization of certain truths. Finally, thankfulness, and humility.
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I'll be blunt. We have a long way to go; I mean the Christians and the Jews, to even get a fraction of the way close to love. The way God meant it to be.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control Yes, but I still have not figured out how to express what I learned to people on a large scale without causing an uproar. What I explained about my experience was as brief as I could make it. I am suffering a bit of depression now because of what I feel I have discovered. It involves humanity in its entirety.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future Based on what I feel I've learned, we have a long way to go to true liberty and love, and peace.
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Belief in a supreme being.
What is your religion now? Liberal The same
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Yes, but I would rather not talk about it until I'm ready.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
After the NDE:
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best part was life itself, with understanding as a human. The worst part was life without a body.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes With my mom and my brothers. I tried to explain it to my wife, but she was not very empathetic toward my situation.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Not now. I need to put it all together. Then maybe I'll have a lot to say, so watch out world!
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No, it's a wonderful questionnaire.