Experience Description

I had a tubule pregnancy that ruptured. I remember in the emergency room the nurse not wanting to 'take a crashing patient' up to surgery by herself. I remember seeing my blood pressure drop on the monitor. I came to up in the surgery room.

Right before surgery, I was scared and crying. I told the doctor that I was afraid I wouldn't wake up. He said, 'You are very, very sick and need to go to sleep so I can help you.' I went to sleep but lost a lot of blood. I remember feeling as if I was lying down but I felt nothing under me. It was dark around me but I wasn't scared. I felt peace. No memories of worldly pains, emotionally or physically. There was like a door to the right side of my legs. Just beyond it, there was a male being. I didn't see him but I felt him and heard him. Not The way we hear though. I still heard him and I knew it was male because the voice was deep. He told me I had a choice to stay or go. All of a sudden, I felt this urgency. I said, 'No! Robert needs me!' I then felt like I jerked back into my body. When I came to one of the nurses came to me and asked me who Robert was. I told her he was my boyfriend. I asked her why. She got a funny look on her face and told me she and the doctors were very concerned about me because I was very, very sick, and suddenly out of the blue I yelled at the top of my lungs, 'No Robert needs me!' She said it startled them.

I recovered from this surgery very quickly. My doctor was amazed at how fast I healed.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: September 29, 2002

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-relatedChildbirth ruptured tubal pregnancy Life threatening event, but not clinical death Ruptured tubule pregnancy, I crashed.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I knew with every fiber of my being that this was real. No one can convince me different.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I heard the voice.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did your vision differ in any way from normal? It was dark, and I was able to see to the right without even turning my head.

Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I heard the deep voice not with my ears but somehow I heard him. I can't explain it.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes A male was there I can't describe him but he told me I had a choice whether to stay or go. I don't know who it was.

The experience included: Darkness

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? First peace then urgency to get back.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes A door.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Christian

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Moderate Christian

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Trying to explain how I heard the voice, not with my ears.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I seem to sometimes know the answer to things that I never knew. Like someone asked if Angels were male or female. I said neither. I just knew. I asked some people I knew who went to church and they said I was correct.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? It made me truly believe that there is something out there.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Within days. Disbelief.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I have heard of it on TV and stuff. I didn't see a light or anything like that.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I just knew with no doubts that it was real.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I still believe it was real even more so now.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No