I had been seriously ill for several weeks, but the doctors didn't acknowledge that. I said I was dying and they sent me to a psychiatrist. Eventually I was admitted into hospital on a Friday. They took x-rays of my lungs but nobody looked at them. On Sunday, I felt even more ill and I had to drag myself out of the bed to go and wash. I stumbled back to the bed and I was only just able to throw myself on the bed and push the buzzer. I felt myself slip into a kind of emptiness. I remember one of the other patients coming to me and rock me in her arms. Also a nurse came who shook me.
Then I was alone again and although I was lying with my back towards the window, I was looking out of that window. In the distance, I saw a glowing point light up. While I was watching it became bigger, like the sun rising and it came through the closed window into the room and embraced me completely. Then all went quiet inside me. All I felt was a warm love, peace, and a feeling of happiness that is difficult to put into words. It seemed I had had a lung embolism and the doctors had saved me from dying. For a long time I have longed for that feeling of love.
Date NDE Occurred: 1976
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Other Heb nooit te horen gekregen wat er toen precies met mij gebeurd is. Psychiater noemde het BDE.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal During the presence of the light.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? In the presence of the light.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I saw things which normally I couldn't see. I was looking out the window while I had my back turned to it.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace, love, happiness.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I used to think I knew it all. Now I know that I know very little!
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I felt clairvoyant.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I was always very afraid of dying, but not anymore.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Very soon after it happened. I don't feel that people believe me though.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I am sure that this actually happened.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I know it happened!
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No