Experience Description

I don't really remember a light, I do remember someone coming towards me, a human but I couldn't or don't remember seeing a face. I do remember hearing children playing close by. It was a lovely feeling of everything being good and right there, there was no animosity, there was no hatred, and I had a total understanding of why I was on earth and who I was. I wasn't there long and someone told me I had to go back, it wasn't my time yet. I argued that I didn't want to leave but before I could get my argument out I was already on my way back. When I was there, it was so beautiful I didn't want to leave. There was nothing mean or bad there at all. It was wonderful. This was the bad place to me. But when I was back here I couldn't remember what it was that I so understood when I was there. I still wonder. It seems as if it was something so simple, so obvious, that I just couldn't believe that I didn't realize it before. I still wonder what it is. I do know that I am not afraid of death any more. Death is not the end of the world. I believe that we are here for a purpose. Maybe to learn something we needed to learn before we can go there.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: September 6, 1998

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Life threatening event, but not clinical death I was visiting my twin sister's home and shortly after leaving, with my then three year old son in the car, I somehow went off the road and went airborne and hit a tree. (I was told I was trying to avoid hitting a deer.)

How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was in and out of a coma for four days. At the time I believe I was at the accident site.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning There were several months after that that I had a hard time remembering anything. People visiting me and things like that.

Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I heard children laughing and playing.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain It was as if I closed my eyes and when I opened them I was there.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I don't know who they were and I didn't see an actual face. The communication was not really verbal more mental on their part but I was trying to talk.

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes There was light when I was there but not before.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm There was a playground with a lot of children playing.

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe Most definitely!! I had a total understanding of the universe at the time!! (This is weird.)

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I was aware, I was told I couldn't stay and that was that.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate

What is your religion now? Moderate

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I have always had a belief in God, this just made it concrete.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It is hard to describe to someone who has not experienced something similar.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes My twin sister and I have a special bond we are identical twins and we tend to read each other's thoughts from time to time.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best was the feeling of peace and love I experienced. The worst was trying to figure out if I had a coma-induced experience or if it was real. (I still don't know.)

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Mixed emotions from people. Some believe me others don't. It changed my life and has touched a couple of people.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Am I crazy?? Did I really have this happen?