I cannot write about it, only speak about it, as it is still too difficult for me.
Date NDE Occurred: septembre 2006
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Cardiac arrests, three in all.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
Did you feel separated from your body? No
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I don't know.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I don't know.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Different noises, now I can no longer stand noise.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain Light and also a welcoming warmth.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw people, without faces, young and old, I don't know if they were family members, asking me to go back, saying I could not stay with them.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A cottony white.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm deux lieu un avec des couleurs douces ouaté, chaleureux des bruits agréables et l'autre des couleurs vives de la chaleur insupotarble et des bruits très désagréables...
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Wellbeing, lightness, gentleness, serenity.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain There has been a force.
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain There has been a force.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I need more authenticity - I'm more sensitive.
Often people who meet me without knowing about the experience, speak of a light around me - strangers speak to me more easily.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Putting what one has been through into words.
The fact of not being able to speak about it with everyone - since it is a private experience. It is so powerful that no suitable words can be found.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I returned here impelled by a force whose origin is unknown to me.
I have been able to re-learn to speak, walk, swallow, move etc. and it is the same force which has helped me - where does it come from?
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes With my parents and a few doctors. They were interested and curious. Yes, my parents are less afraid of death.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I just don't know how to talk about it.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real In the same way this prevents me from speaking about it.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I would like to discuss it with people who could understand.