Experience Description

An old man driving a camper turned left in front of us; we were doing fifty-five mph at the time of impact. I broke the rear view mirror with my head and flew through the windshield. I remember waking up to my friend screaming that she killed me (she was driving). I don't remember how I got into the ambulance, but once in I fell into a deep sleep, no pain. Suddenly, I was out of my body looking down at the emergency medical technician trying to get my pulse and saying, 'We're losing her,' over and over again, and my friend screaming, 'She's dead, don't die Chris!'

I could see every detail of the ambulance, my body position, my friend's posture, the emergency medical technician's movements and instruments he was using to try to get my pulse back, even the color of the blanket that was wrapped around me. And even though I could see myself, I knew it wasn't me. I had no feeling of panic or fear, just a passing interest of what was occurring.

Within seconds of observing my lifeless body, I found myself traveling through a tunnel of sorts at lightning speed, sort of like the 'Star Wars' movie 'time warp.' It was as though all energy of the universe was passing by me, and soon there were specks of bright white light converging into a glaring white light. It felt like a rocket-propelled orgasm. This feeling was like no other I had experienced and like no other I have experienced since then - it was as if providence was holding me. Then, I heard the voice of God in my head, and all at once, he asked me, 'Have you loved enough? Have you learned enough? Have you experienced enough?' I suddenly realized that I had not done the things he had asked of me, and I screamed, 'No!' I need to do more time. And just like that, boom! I was back in my body moaning from the pain.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: spring 1974

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) . I was in a car accident, and when rescued, the emergency medical technicians lost my pulse; basically, I died.

How do you consider the content of your experience?

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was more alert immediately after they lost my pulse and I was above my body watching the emergency medical technician work on me.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning There was no time; time was speeding by me at a lightening pace.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Everything was more distinct, sounds, movement. Some things were transparent.

Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? My hearing was exceptional, in that I could hear every word they spoke, even though they spoke over one another.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was more like the 'tunnel' passed around me.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The light became more collected the farther down the tunnel I got.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? At first I felt calm, then while traveling through the 'tunnel' I felt orgasmic.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I am a practicing Christian, where before I was wandering.

What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am a practicing Christian, where before I was wandering.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes WE are here to love, learn, and experience.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I felt a hot energy emanating from my hands to heal. Also, my ability to weed out evil people increased.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? All of it is meaningful to me. The first part verifies it was real, or how else would I know what happened in that ambulance when I was unconscious?

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Only people very close to me, about five people in thirty-eight years. It took me almost five years to even mention what happened, and about ten years to go into detail.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Because of the details and the questions asked of me.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No