Experience Description

I was experimenting with heroin, which turned out to be a very dangerous decision. I had had a fight with my boyfriend at the time and wanted to be alone. We were at a friend's house, I went into a bedroom sat on a bed and shot up the heroin. I was told that I died, only after did I realize what I had experienced was a near death experience. I remember all of a sudden I was conscious and aware of myself and I was somewhere else, but it was dark and I couldn't see anything but I wasn't afraid. I was very much aware of the fact that I was not in my body anymore but I was okay, I remember thinking where am I? I was aware that I was still here, that my brain still worked even though I had no body and I was happy to know that this was possible. I knew in that moment that we will always exist, this was the predominate feeling I had, this awareness of my soul continuing without a body. I have always felt since that day that there is no need for me to fear death because I know it's not the end. I never did drugs again after that, I was lucky that my friend came into the room and found me in time. She said I was black in the face and that I was not breathing, my heart was beating so slowly that it was almost non-existent. I was brought back by paramedics and all of a sudden I could feel air in my lungs again and I was back.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 19/4/1992

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Drug overdose Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal The whole time.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The whole time.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Depth of perception was heightened I felt as though I knew the answers to Life.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I was in my mortal body one minute and some time passed then all of a sudden I was somewhere, but it was dark there was no space I was a floating brain.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Darkness

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Clam, heightened awareness of self, peaceful, curious.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Moderate

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I came to be aware that I would always exist no matter what happened. I felt this, no one told me, and I just knew it because of what was happening I remember coming to this conclusion myself. I could think, I could joke around to myself but I was alone for the time I was there but I didn't feel alone?

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I was pretty clueless when it came to people and situations before, I could never read people or know their motivations. Now I have an awareness of others intentions and emotions it's hard to describe but I am more in tune with others and myself.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Just leaving with the knowledge that I will not die was comforting.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told my boyfriend right after, he believed me, but most people I have told think that it's not true, they have no concept of what it's like so they can't relate.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I think I viewed it as reality mainly because I was on a heavy drug that was acting like a sedative. If I was conscious and in my physical body I would not have remembered everything so clearly or even experienced it because I would have been very drowsy and at best in a drug clouded state of mind which I was not while I was having the experience I was totally normal and alert.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Same as above.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Just that death is nothing to fear.