One night I was driving on a two way single lane road in Florida after being tired from studying all night the night before for a graduate school exam. It was around 8:30 pm and dark in December of 2006 and at the time I had been feeling really ill with mono like symptoms for a time of about two months. As I was driving to get home up a small slope, I started feeling my heart beat really hard and fast along with the feeling of being very confused, dizzy, and lightheaded.
At the moment I panicked because I was on the road driving for one and two most importantly I felt like I was going die from my heart beating rapidly and hard. Instantly I thought that this was it and it was my time to die at the age of twenty-five. I was concerned for the safety of others on the road and unfortunately there was nowhere to pullover and stop the vehicle and call for help. All of a sudden a second later it was as if the lights were out in my eyes and I found myself in a pitch-black environment. I still feel the vehicle moving forward, in third gear still, and moving straight. Confusing I know!
In the pitch-blackness setting, I found myself begging a non-present God to let me stay and remember telling him I was too young to die. Immediately after the thought of my daughter arose in my thoughts and I felt sadness for her as I thought my time was ending. Subsequently I told God I had to take care of her since I was her father and provider. Immediately I saw images of my life as if someone did a slideshow of my life entirely. When my daughter's images showed up, I felt love and sadness. I continued begging God. All of a sudden, I left the pitch-black place and it was as if I woke up again. The strange thing about when I woke up again is that I was still on the road driving. I just felt dizzy, confused, and lightheaded but the rapid heartbeat was gone. I stopped and called my friends for help and they picked me up.
Date NDE Occurred: Dec 2006
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes 'Fast beating heart rate, dizziness, lightheadedness, confusion.' 'Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening'
I had been feeling really sick for about two months now. I had Mono-like symptoms. Doctors couldn't find anything wrong. After this NDE a few weeks later, a doctor found I had Hashimoto's Thyroiditis. My feeling of dizziness, lightheadedness, confusion, mono symptoms, and the rapid heart rate was a result of my thyroid going out on me from so many years of not being not treated.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Frightening
Did you feel separated from your body? No
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness When I was in pitch darkness and my life review was occurring.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was in pitch darkness and my life review was occurring.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I remember this occurring while I was driving my vehicle and when my NDE was over I still was driving my vehicle. Ironically, while I was experiencing my NDE I still felt my car moving and time continuing forward even though time and space had stopped for me. When I came back my car had drove forward a few hundred feet.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Anxiety, fear, sadness, regret, forgiveness, love for my daughter.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I just saw my life in sequence of every Kodak moment that was saved in my life whether it was me playing sports, growing up, seeing my daughter born, and so on. No, I did not learn anything that I did not previously know. The post NDE has taught me that I have a second chance in life and to not take life for granted. An aunt once told me once when I was in despair that life is a gift every day. I always thought I was invincible like most young men.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future Somewhat, like I felt the future of my daughter depended on me strongly. I felt pretty aware of this during my life review.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Raised Catholic but attended services seldomly.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Still a catholic but now more spiritual. I have a better relationship with God, an open relationship. I feel religion, culture, and other demographics are irrelevant to God. Also God does not judge but has put our souls on this planet to learn and mature us spiritually whether we recognize it or not.
What is your religion now? Liberal Still Catholic as I use this as an apparatus to live a good and loving life.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Still a catholic but now more spiritual. I have a better relationship with God, an open relationship. I feel religion, culture, and other demographics are irrelevant to God. Also God does not judge but has put our souls on this planet to learn and mature us spiritually whether we recognize it or not.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Felt my purpose was to love and be there for my daughter.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Today I am more patient, loving, friendlier, generous, and grateful.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have more premonition abilities and have come to understand them as a gift even though they come and go.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The life review was significant because I felt that someone is always watching and is concerned about our welfare. That someone I believe to be God.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes It took like three years to share this with a few close family and friends. Some felt a strong belief others didn't entertain it too much.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I was flabbergasted by the whole ordeal and know it was so real but surreal at the same time.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I know what happened and what I experienced was strange but life in reality. Life is beautiful and hard at times. We are going to struggle, commit errors, enjoy it, abuse it, and so on but life goes on afterwards.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No