I was suffering from Rocky Mountain spotted tick fever. I was having experiences that are very hard to describe. Hallucinations had become everyday experiences for me. I remember some of them, but thank God have forgotten most. I remember almost nothing about 04/08/2010 except my NDE. I told my wife about it, but she was skeptical until I told her which bathroom I was in and the position of my body.
I was having this delusion that I was half man and half dog, with super human strength (this is one of the memories I retain) when I found myself floating out of my body. The best way for me to describe the feelings I had when this happened has taken me almost a year to figure out, and I got it from watching my beloved dog Samson. I was making a funny noise at him, just to watch him cock his head. Dog lovers have all watched and laughed at our dogs for doing this.
What I realized was that my dog's feeling of bewilderment was the same bewilderment I felt, looking down at my own body! After a second or so, a sense of peace overcame all my emotions, and I knew I was looking at my now lifeless body. I did not care! It was a relief to know it was over. I knew I was very near Heaven - but almost instantly, I knew I could not stay there. It seems like it happened both in a second and in fifteen minutes all at once. In the place where I found myself, time had no meaning whatsoever. That feeling of being complete remains with me, and sometimes for a brief instant, I get a glimpse of what I felt - and I wish everyone could have this feeling!! Then all of a sudden - wham - I was right back in that painful crumpled body on the floor. It felt like I was pushed, and I did not want to go back.
Date NDE Occurred: 4-8-2010
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness acute rocky mountain spotted tick fever Other 'I saw my body on the bathroom floor, and i have never felt such peace-ever'
I was in the advanced stages of Rocky Mountain spotted tick fever, having seizures. I was air lifted to Roanoke hospital and put on life support.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal During my NDE.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During my NDE.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I knew that time has no meaning in the presence of God.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My observations were limited by the fact that, while I did realize that I was looking down at my own body, it was over very quickly. I never even looked around. I was transfixed, staring at my body.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don't remember hearing any sounds.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain There was a presence above me and I knew it was very bright, but my experience was over so quickly that I did not get a chance to look at it.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Only love and joy.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist Christian
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist Christian
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I knew my body lay dead on the floor and it did not bother me in the least. I was very grateful that this life was over, for I knew I was very near Heaven, but at the same time, I knew I would not be able to stay there.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I have more compassion and forgiveness than I used to have. I feel as if I have special knowledge now that was shown to me for a reason. Others need to hear about this.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It was hard trying to make others understand the degree of peace I felt.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Sometimes some things seem very strange to me now, but I still don't understand it much.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, knowing that there was a presence of absolute goodness there, and that there was nothing to worry about.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Right away I felt that the experience was 'definitely real.' I was not sure what had happened until it came clearly to me after I told Tonda about my experience, and she and I had the exact same memory of what my body looked like lying on the floor. And when I could not remember anything else. There is no other explanation.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I still see the experience as 'definitely real.' I know in my heart it is real. The amount of love and joy I felt - I know there is no other worldly human experience like this, nothing on Earth has ever come close to this for me - not before or after my experience.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Ask if anyone had a 'dark' experience and how it has changed their ways, if at all. Mind you, I was no angel before my experience - but I have always believed in God.