My story started when I was having dinner at home. I live by myself with my two cats, and one evening, when I was having dinner all alone, I suddenly started to feel very light-headed, dizzy and short of breath. I decided to try to make it to my bedroom so I could lie down, with the hope it would subside. I never made it to the bedroom. I was suffering from a heart problem I did not know I had. There was a dresser with no drawers in it in the spare bedroom, and I could see myself lying inside this dresser all curled up in a ball. I watched as one of my cats (Compass) walked up to me and lay down by my side.
Suddenly, I saw this very bright and pulsating light. It was like a strobe light, but a hundred times faster. It was pulsating so fast that it was almost a steady light. I heard people calling my name. Next, I found myself traveling to a place that was beyond comprehension. I was no longer feeling the pain that I had been when all of this started. It was a very strange feeling, unlike any I had ever felt before. I knew that somebody or something was guiding me through this very strange, but very loving, journey. This person or thing loved me very much, even though I could not tell who or what it was. Then, in a split second, there were people surrounding me - people whom I had never seen before. I could feel love from these people, like no love that I had ever felt before. I did not want to leave this place. In this place, I was pain-free and surrounded by strange people who loved me very much.
I was hearing this lady's voice saying over and over, 'Brian, get up, you have to get up Brian, Brian get up,' when suddenly I awoke, gasping for air and lying inside this empty dresser in a big pool of sweat. I was aware of having scrapes and gouges from the dresser and of my cat Compass lying next to me, just like I had watched him do. When I awoke, there was no lady there - like I said, I live alone. The next day I went to see my doctor, who confirmed my heart problem. I just know that I 'cannot' wait to go back there, even though I know that I can't go there again for a long, long time.
Date NDE Occurred: 2008
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain 'Unaware I had heart problems, but it was not a heart attack.' Other 'Heart problem, not sure if heart stopped or not but I know what happened and what I saw.'
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Not sure.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Not sure.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time did not exist in this place.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Bright strobe lights, beautiful colors, etc.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could communicate without speaking.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Passed through a very fast strobe light.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Not sure who they were, but I just knew that I was loved by all of them.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A very fast strobe light.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm not sure where or what this place was.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, kindness, beauty, pain-free etc.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal 'I believe that there is someone or something that helps us go to where we are supposed to go, and I now believe that we 'DO' go on to a beautiful and loving place after we die.'
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal I believe there is someone or something.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain Not sure.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The people that were waiting there for me, not sure who they were, but I know that these people loved me, and confused about the place that I went.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Some psychic abilities.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? All those whom I 'did not' know there, but they still loved me very much. I can't wait to go back.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Documentaries.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I was sad that I couldn't stay in this place.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I just can't wait to go back to this place.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It was all too real and we will all go to this place someday.