When I was about 11, I came down with chicken pox. I was very ill for a very long time. I would say I was deathly ill for about a month. I was running a very high fever, not eating, and had many lesions on my body that were very itchy and painful. The doctor would come by routinely for visits, as I was too weak to leave the house. There came a point where I was having visual hallucinations. I would be wide-awake and see bugs on my pillowcase - distressing, scary things. But I was awake during these events. My parents were getting very scared and the next day I was to be brought to the hospital. The hospital was preparing a room for me they said. That night when I was in bed I suddenly found myself in a tunnel or in a blackness. There was this - what I can describe as - a cut out of the blackness. As if, you were to cut a hole in black paper or something. Because there was this hole is why I say I was in a tunnel of some kind. Anyway, it was pitch black except for this hole, where I could see a blue sky on the other side. The light did not permeate into the blackness where I was suspended. These two little girls appeared in this hole and they were looking at me, smiling, giggling, and telling me things. I felt completely happy and comforted by them. They were my age and I now feel like they were my guardian angels. Of course, I can't be sure of this. The miraculous thing about this is the next morning I was completely better. No fever and I wanted to eat again. The sores went away almost immediately. I've always remembered this and have shared this with some people. I don't know if I died or how long I was with these little girls. It was a wonderful feeling being with them. I wish I were high enough in this space to see behind these girls to see what landscape lay behind them but I was suspended below them looking up. There was another experience that I feel, is worth mentioning. Not long ago I had surgery to remove my gall bladder. It was routine surgery but I was having much difficulty in the recovering room. I was vomiting and basically not recovering. The doctor decided to have me stay the night. The whole night I didn't sleep due to nurses coming in every hour to check my vitals. At some point in the night, I heard a loud bang, almost like a gun shot went off near my head. Immediately, I was standing in this landscape and I could see other people standing near me looking up at these HUGE pink clouds leading up to the heavens. It was like being in the eye of a hurricane where it is still, with towering clouds leading upward for what looked like an eternity. The next thing I knew is I woke up feeling terrible. I don't remember feeling any emotion with this experience - it was just this beautiful sight.
Date NDE Occurred: 1979
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness. Life threatening event, but not clinical death.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness Normal consciousness
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I don't remember feeling like time was passing. It did seem like it happened all at once.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Normal vision
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Normal hearing, although I don't remember hearing anything.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
The experience included: Tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I saw a hole cut-out-like thing but no a tunnel with sides or anything.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I think in the second one that the people I saw were deceased people.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes This light didn't permeate the void in which I was.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The land with the amazingly high clouds, which were beautiful and pink/white.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? The first experience I felt happiness and joy and the second one there was no emotion. It seemed like I was there a split-second.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Slightly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I encountered these two little girls and in the second one I saw other people possibly who had just died, I think.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes It does exist.
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I feel these guardian angels were just a prelude of what is to come and I would have met God if I went into the hole. God definitely exists.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I do feel that there is life after death. An illness might last for a while but death is an instantaneous thing.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Unknown
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I am sometimes able to sense when something is about to happen. Many times, I dream of things that actually happen.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The whole experience was meaningful to me.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told my parents immediately, which of course really scared them. With the second, I told my significant other and I'm not sure if he knows what happened to me.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
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