I was in the hospital for three days before I came to realize that I was there. My family told me of things that had happened. My first memory of something different was no color, only gray. I saw a video of my life as if someone had videotaped it. I viewed it and saw many people, places and things from my life starting with things that I knew had happened. It was wonderful. The video was in black and white but other than the video, everything was still gray. I wanted to see color again and when I did, it was fantastic! I saw colors I could never explain. A shade of red that I will never forget. Then visions of things that were so real. The visions of things and people that I could examine. It was so wonderful where I was, I wanted to stay, but knew I had to return.
I have a son who is thirty-six years old and who was born with cerebral palsy and lives with me. We have a strong bond in life. The family said I was so happy and smiled a great deal.
I spent nine days in the hospital and the only long-term effect that is still with me is a blind spot in my right eyesight. This blind spot is hard to describe because there is a nothingness.
When I meet other people that have had a stroke, I ask them about their experiences and none has been like mine. I don't know where I was but I do know that it was a place like my dear beloved father had told me about when I was a child. SUCH WONDERMENT!!!
Date NDE Occurred: March 5,2001
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack heart attack and stroke brought on by blood clots that shoot through my body. Life threatening event, but not clinical death I was told that I was not expected to walk of the hospital and that I astounded everyone.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive
Did you feel separated from your body? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Very alert. I wanted to see everything.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Music and sounds of all kinds. I thought I could hear flowers grow and giggle.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? No
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See my above answer.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe Mostly I was observing things.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control See my above answer.
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I knew I was needed here.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Don't worry about the little things.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Nothingness - I would try and tell what was there but I could not explain nothingness. Colors that I never saw before, shapes, flora, beautiful objects and a wonderful feeling of contentment.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The feeling that I experienced along with the beauty I saw.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes My friends and family know that I am a truthful person in what I tell them, they respect it.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No