Experience Description

I was undergoing an operation to remove my gall bladder. The first thing I remember was sort of rolling over, and then I felt myself being pulled backwards towards the ceiling. I looked down and saw a person laying on an operating table covered in green drapes. I realized it was me, but didn't feel any remorse at leaving my body. Then I was pulled backwards again only this time at great speed, I was still travelling backwards and was terrified. I reached out to try to grab something to stop myself but there was only blackness. There was blackness like I'd never seen before. I don't know how long this went on for, it could have been a few seconds and then again it could have been a few years! I then heard a sound telling me to 'Go Back'. The sound was neither male nor female it was a bit like music. The next thing I remember was hearing voices telling me to breathe. There seemed to be a bit of a commotion going on.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: September 1990

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes It was like my body was made of light, it still felt like a body but when I looked at it, it wasn't really there!

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? One hundred percent.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time didn't seem to exist.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Only the musical voice.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was black and very wide.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? See main narrative.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I was told to go back. It never occurred to me to argue with this!

God, Spiritual and Religion:

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I'm not so rushed and panicky, people matter to me much more. I feel I have a purpose in life.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It was totally mind-blowing, fantastic and supernatural.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I'd tell when the phone was going to ring or friends were going to visit. I seemed to have a strange energy. The radio would turn on as I passed it. Light globes blow when I press the switch. I started to 'feel' things about people; I have a tremendous urge to heal. I started to see peoples' auras.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best part was the transformation after it. The worst part was the tremendous speed.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Some people think I'm crazy. Some are very interested and ask me loads of questions. Some come to me for help.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Repeated noises freak me out. I can't tolerate loud noises and bright lights.