What I now know was an aura passed, just unconsciousness, not aware that I was gone. Floating, no sound or smell, a feeling of utter peace, no forward, or backwards or side to side, in a light part of the light, no weight, no pain, no body awareness. Brought to as an external pacemaker being put in my leg, left again, jolted to be brought back, did not want to leave the peace and contentment, did not realize that that was death.
Date NDE Occurred: November 21, 2003
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes months of fainting preceded Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) 'sudden death epilepsy, but that was not known at the time'. Flat lined.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Light was brighter but could feel its softness, no labor to breathe or move, no distraction by your body.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? All of it.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning No space, all space, definitely part of the space - no time.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? No depth perception, as I said, you were part of where you were.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? No sound.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No Did not feel like I was passing through a tunnel or enclosure I may have been in the tunnel or enclosure, there was no way of telling, but I was in a light.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Part of the light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm All I know that where ever I was ,I try very hard to be a good person,because I want to go back there when I do die.I felt that I was honored to have been able to see and be there
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace wonderment and joy.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes There are too many things that have happened to me since that I am sure there is a higher being and they are in my corner. Not religious, more so spiritual, denominations still fight between themselves as to who or what God is, and I don't want to be part of that. I also feel that I have been given a better understanding and somehow gotten a little closer to God, or maybe it's that I have let him closer to me.
What is your religion now? Moderate very spiritual
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes There are too many things that have happened to me since that I am sure there is a higher being and they are in my corner. Not religious, more so spiritual, denominations still fight between themselves as to who or what God is, and I don't want to be part of that. I also feel that I have been given a better understanding and somehow gotten a little closer to God, or maybe it's that I have let him closer to me.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Not until afterward.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I do not hesitate to show love for my fellow man, and at times am taken advantage of because of it, but I know that what I am doing is true and from the heart and if their motives were not from that place, than it is they who are really hurt, hurting themselves and others. I have gained an incredible sense of patience, if you are going to be two minutes late, maybe there is a reason why, maybe if you got there two minutes earlier, as in driving, you may have caused or been part of an accident. I do have difficulty with having patience with people that take advantage of others though and that's still something I am working on. I am more forgiving of others and especially of myself. I am comfortable in my own skin more so then ever before.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Because it was nothing that I had experienced before and hard to relate to others.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes There have been occurrences that have happened in my life since the event that cannot be explained or are too much to be coincidence.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I feel that I must be here for a reason, and that nothing happens by coincidence, everyone we meet, it is for a reason, we are taught by everyone. I feel more than I did before, other people's happiness or sorrow.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I could not help but share the experience; I was so excited by where I had been that it could not be kept inside. Some people look at me as though I have lost my mind, others say they understand, but have a look of disbelief or non-understanding, and I can understand, because I still have a difficult time understanding.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. And for a purpose, I feel honored, special and that I have been given a second chance. I feel more in touch with the world and myself.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I think I have already stated that I feel honored and special, and an abundance of love. At times, I feel that maybe I have become too soft for this world. The world can be an ugly and hard place. At times when it gets bad, it can be hard to hold on to the wonderment of being allowed to be here, but then I wonder how difficult it must be for those that haven't had the experience of seeing what I have seen to hold on to love and goodness. People can be untruthful and selfish, and it can be hard to not turn into that kind of person, but I think the experience I had allows me to see the world kinder.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Yes, it is the best thing that has ever happened to me, The roses smell better, the sky is bluer the air is crisper, I have learned to appreciate life in a way that I don't think I ever could have if I did not have this experience.
What I have the most difficulty understanding is how differently this experience can affect different people, I have met someone that has also experienced near death, and he came back a very negative person, with horrid nightmares of demons chasing him, he has become a person with the mindset of 'I will get them before they get me.' I wish there was someone I could ask as to why this is so. But who do you ask?
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Cannot think of any.