I suddenly found myself alone. In a dismal, gray immensely huge, foggy space, I was alone. I felt an overwhelming fear growing up inside me - I felt foul, spoiled, overcome with shame. Why I hadn't done more when I'd had the chance? The opportunity to change things for the better was now over and I'd missed it. The sense of remorse was overwhelming.
A knowledge filled me—here in this horrible empty space—there was no possibility for change. I felt so remorseful; I'd missed my chance.
Footnote: The details just mentioned I forgot to include in my first submission - I feel however, that they're important. It is also interesting to note that at the time I was still fairly young, I had not done anything 'wrong.' I was a nurse and cared for people, yet still I experienced a negative NDE.
Then I thought of something; I was filled with fear again—‘My friend! How was he? I had to get back to him!’
A long silver chord attached to me and pulled me with immense speed down. All I could think of during the descent was my friend. Terrified, I wanted to get back to him; I felt he needed me. I was so desperate—I felt I had to get. The emotions that were flowing through me made me realize that I was still myself—that even in this space I was the same person I ever was.
(As I mentioned in my first submission) - I returned into my body under great pressure as if tons of sand were smothering me. I was overwhelmed by the huge weight bearing upon me, but I fought the pressure and forced myself against the pressure to begin breathing.
I brought myself back to life—by bringing myself to breathe again and by curing my neck. The panic to reach my friend, whom I felt needed me, was so great that it gave me the power to cure myself to get back to him.
(For more...See the first submission...)
Footnote: Also of interest - after my NDE experience, my ideas about reincarnation changed—I knew it was true; it felt so normal.
And although my experience was a negative one, I lost my fear of death. I gained the knowledge that one could cure oneself. I'd also gained the ability to cure others.
My daughter was crying. She'd found her goldfish dead on the floor. It had been lying there for so long, that it had begun to dry out. I picked it up, put it in the water tank, slowly moved it up and down, and it came back to life. This has happened so often with other fish that my husband and daughter think it’s normal now that fish, as well as cats, all have nine lives! I have also noticed that I may be able to help heal people, but I'm not sure about this. I was terrified about his safety. I kept thinking how is he....
It was a car accident. Both, I and my partner, were in danger. The car swerved off a country road, flew into the air over a cliff - flipping onto its roof - hitting the ground and smashing into a tree. The car was demolished.
We were only saved because the car we were driving was an old model Volvo, 1964, with a steel or iron roll bar that withheld the impact of the crash.
In desperation, with a reflex-movement to get out of the car, I released my seat belt. The car flying through the air, flipped suddenly when it the ground. I was thrown with full force up against the roof.
I fell with all my weight onto the back of my neck. I felt a sudden, painful snap. The pain in my neck was so extreme that it shot through my head like a blast of pure energy.
Date NDE Occurred: Friday the 13th, June 1980
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Accident Clinical death severe neck injury
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed: Positive
The experience included: Out of body experience
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? fear and remorse
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What is your religion now? Liberal I believe in forgiveness and respect. I can not bare suffering and fight all forms of rejection. It is my calling to create a basis for mutual understanding, i am here to build bridges. After the NDE I knew, without doubt, that life was evergoing.
After my NDE, comimg back felt familiar. I lost a fear of death and knew that I would probably come back again.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Although my experience was a negative one, I lost my fear of death. I gained the knowledge that one could cure oneself. I'd also gained the ability to cure others.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain