It was a normal night like any other. I went to sleep to my room at around 11:00 pm. Shortly after some sleep I opened my eyes (I do not know how long it was between I went to sleep until I opened my eyes). When I opened them, I knew I was dead. I knew that if I were sleeping I could be waking up in the other edge. I knew I was a spirit, I felt it real. The first thing I thought was, 'After all I am dead!' I felt in that moment a big scare due to I always wanted to die - I had never clung onto life or feared death.
When it happened I thought, 'Now what do I do? Where do I go?' I did not see anything; I was just into a kind of emptiness with light. I did not see any paths; I did not see people, anything. It was then I asked God to help me, to not take the wrong way, and if it was possible to send me my deceased sister to welcome me and to show me the way. According to my beliefs, I was sure that our relatives or familiar people come for us and guide us where we have to go. Nothing or no one appeared, so I started to 'walk alone' and just by thinking, I was going to where I wanted.
All was like mental, I knew I did not have a physical body, I felt so light. However, I started feeling a thirsty sensation and I was anguish because I did not know how long I had to 'walk'. I thought, 'As I walk God will give me more thirst.' In that instant I started to feel anguish for the thirsty sensation when a crystal-clear water stream appeared at my feet. It was transparent I could see the bed of the stream; it had rounded stones all in the bed instead of ground. When I saw the water so clean that I knew it was fresh, in that instant the sensation of thirst disappeared and I just thought to follow that stream to see where it went.
When I thought about that, it was like transporting by only wishing that with my mind, I arrived at the end of the stream that was very narrow. I bumped into a strong ray of light like an intense white ray. I even had to close my eyes until I was not dazzled. Before I opened my eyes, I was thinking that God was that light. While I was opening my eyes, until I could penetrate that light, what I saw was the Virgin of Guadalupe as if made of pure gold. She was shining like the light of the sun.
The sparks of her layer were like light sparks. Her rays were shining intensely all around. It was pure light, really beautiful! I was standing there just looking at her for a moment until I saw her face for a moment. Without telling me anything, I remember that I turned down to see what I had left in life, my fellow beings. I saw the image of my mother with my two sisters together. I started analyzing them to know what could they be feeling with my death. In that time I had some issues with my mom because she was so hard with me and when I saw her I was telling myself: 'She does not love me so I do not want to go back and live for her.' Then I saw my sisters and I thought, 'They are nice and they love me but I know they are going to be fine without me.'
In that moment, I turned back to the Virgin of Guadalupe. I saw her face to face and she told me, looking at me so tender, and with a sweet voice, that I had to go back because it was not my time. I told her 'NO, NO, NO, please I am here.' I told her 'Tell him [referring to God] to let me stay here, I do not want to go back, please!' She repeated to me, 'You have to go back; this is not your time.' I continued with my No, No, please! When I started to listen, it was like if I were moving away and the echo of the voice of the Virgin and my voice like going away. I felt like attracted to the inside of a tunnel.
Suddenly I opened my eyes where I was sleeping, but when I opened my eyes, I was still looking at the golden light. It was like dazzling, like when someone looks at the light bulb for a long time, then looks at the darkness, and still sees a 'light'. In this way, I woke up in the semi-darkness of my room and I started to cry because of the emotion.
I felt so excited. I felt a lot of peace and tranquility and when it was getting light, my sight was more perfect, all I saw was clearer and cleaner than normal. I felt so much peace, happiness, love. I felt other person so able to forgive everything and to do not get angry for nothing. The only bad was that I forgot to see the exact date, what day it was, so I could celebrate all the years of that day as if it was like the date when I was born again.
After three years of the experience my mom died - we fixed all our differences - thanks to God. I had the opportunity to be okay with my mom and to show her how much I loved her. We forgave each other and we were in peace. For that, I give thanks to God for the new opportunity to live that He gave me - for letting me be with my mom and take care of her in her last days of life by my side.
Date NDE Occurred: 1996
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack Estando dormido Other Estando dormido se detuvo mi corazón. Heart attack.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I was conscious of everything and my vision was perfect.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? In the moment when I opened my eyes and I knew I was dead.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time and space does not exist there. We can be transported there only wishing it with the mind.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? I saw intensely and well, all was bright and looked perfectly clean because of the clearness and brightness.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was like emptiness with light, I could not see any shape, I was only in the light - but it was a normal white light.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw only the Virgin of Guadalupe.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes An intense and bright light. I was like a ray that blinded me because of its white brightness.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Sólo vi ese arroyito y a la virgen.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? See narrative.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I only saw my mom and my two sisters. When I looked at them I was thinking what would they will be feeling with my death - if I stayed there were I went when I had that experience.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist Católico
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist Católico
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes After the experience I felt spiritually stronger. I felt more mature and I learnt to help people who suffer or are needy, giving them consolation, counsel, etc. I shared my faith with them. And I know I had been transforming some people whose faith was not strong in them.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I am more quiet and patient. I learnt to forgive and to be happy with what I have. My biggest happiness is to help the needy people. I am not materialist and I am ready to die when God calls me.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have personal premonitions, things that I dream and that happen afterwards. When I have an issue, I dream it before. I have an intuition very developed. When I see a known person, at the short time of knowing them I know how they are, if they are nice or mad, and I am often right. I have a lot of perception and strength.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? To see the Virgin was unforgettable, I did not expect it. I expected to see my deceased little sister - I never expected to see a Light Being.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I always share it to help others to make stronger their faith in God and in the Virgin. Also, to help others, so they stop fearing death, and so that they be less materialistic and be more spiritualists. So they believe more in God and they can make stronger their faith.
I share it too often when someone shares with me that they are suffering or that they do not know what to do with their life. That is the way I can help them or at least to give them consolation.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I saw it immediately after I opened my eyes.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It was real since I opened my eyes in my bed and I had never doubted about what I lived. I know it was not a dream, and maybe my heart stopped working for some minutes or seconds, I do not know. I have never known how much time passed between the time I went to sleep and the time when I woke up in the spiritual world.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Thank you for letting me be part of this wonderful website where people like me have the privilege to share these marvelous near death experiences and share them with all of you.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I enjoyed this entire questionnaire.
I wish there could be more websites like this one. It is complete! And full of enrichment experiences.
I wish you could make TV programs about the experiences; they are marvelous and leave us a lot of hope in a better life when we pass away from this one.